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Post by Kelsey Rachel LeBlanc on Jan 4, 2010 15:28:22 GMT -5
Kelsey's life was never easy. It was actually the farthest thing from easy. Her life was getting more scarier and scarier. She had been really sick lately. She had no energy and was experiences wicked headaches. Her stomach was killing her and she was beginning to think of things, dark things. More and more dark thoughts had been coming into her mind. She was actually thinking of joining the death eaters at one point. She had no clue what was going on, until she talked to her father. She found out that she was a horcrux for Bellatrix Lestrange. Her own father had gave his child to be a horcrux. She didn't freak out though, she had remained calm. There was only one person who could help her, but she needed to do something first.
Kelsey had kept all this from James. She didn't want to worry him before she knew everything. However, she felt it was time to tell him. Like her father had told her, she shouldn't' keep things a secret in her marriage. Her father had actually gave her good helpful marriage advice. It was killing her that she hadn't told him what was going on. Kelsey had told James to meet her in an empty classroom on the sixth floor after classes were over. She wanted to tell him in private because she did not want everyone knowing her secret.
Kelsey stood in the classroom waiting for James. She had been really pale and there were dark circles around her eyes. It had been weeks since she had gotten more than three hours of sleep. Dark nightmares were haunting her dreams. She was scared to go to sleep! She would awake in a cold sweat every night. It was driving her insane. Her heart raced as she waited for James to arrive. SHe was scared of how he would take this. |
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Post by padfoot on Jan 19, 2010 20:20:15 GMT -5
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James had been worried about his wife for a few weeks now, but there were plenty reasons for that. For one, she was acting different and seemed more tired than she should have recently. Second of all, he had been helping his sister out with her Death Eater and being pregnant issues for a while now before so much chaos had happened that everyone now believed her to be dead. And he as well as anyone else was not to know other wise so of course he could not even tell Kelsey why he had not been around to keep an eye on her recently. She had not sounded too good when they had talked earlier, but it had only been brief enough for her to tell him to meet her in an old classroom later. He knew right where he was going and he could not clear his head even the tiniest bit as he walked up from the grounds having just been talking with one of his friends who was helping him out with all the stuff happening with Lily before.
One of the really good friends of James was a seventeen year old named Michael Rodney and he was new to Hogwarts this year, and he had previously been giving him advice on what to say to his pregnant little sister. After all, Michael already had a two and a half year old son of his own. So he was talking from experience. So today James had met up with him to just talk and blow off steam before he talked to Kelsey because he knew something was wrong there and he did not know if he had screwed up or if it was something else that was bothering his wife. He definitely had no regrets or thoughts on anything that happened between him and Kelsey but maybe she was hiding something? What would he do if he had not been the one to screw things up? What if he had, but indirectly because he would not tell her what was going on with him recently? What if it was none of that?
Everything that had been bothering him in the past few days was coming up into one moment. One big thought threatening to explode his brain from the inside out if he thought about it too hard. Which was what was bound to happen knowing James. He does not have patience for anything and he had the vaguest feeling that something was seriously wrong and that he would find out about it soon enough. This could not turn out good, but he simply puffed on his cigarette and walked up the the castle. Nothing he could do to change anything that has already happened, and as long as he had not done anything for Kelsey to hate him, he would do everything he could to help and or protect her. After all that is what you do for the love of your life, right?
When he got up to the big oak front doors to the castle he stood there for only a few more minutes to finish the last cigarette he knew he would be having for a while. Because even though there was a window in the classroom he could open, he would not do that. It just didn't seem right to be smoking inside the school unless it was raining or freezing cold or something. That was when it wasn't a big deal. Because then any nicotine addict in the school will be found there, but Sirius at least tried to be kind of respectful of the school by not smoking inside. Only drinking to the point of stupidity. But that was a thought for another time, he had to remind himself as he finally walked upstairs to the abandoned classroom he knew he would find his wife inside.
"Kelsey?" he called as he pushed open the door and shortly found her standing just inside the room. She looked like she had not slept in weeks still, the dark circles growing even darker under her eyes. "Baby, are you okay?" he asked, hurrying in the room and scooping her up in his arms and holding her close against his warm body.
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Post by Kelsey Rachel LeBlanc on Jan 19, 2010 20:47:46 GMT -5
Kelsey could feel her insides want to burst out crying again. She had wanted to cry ever since she was raped. That is right, Kelsey was violently raped by Jack Lestrange. Very few people knew about it, which is how Kelsey liked it. She had spent a good part of the week alone crying, even spending a day to go home and relax and cry. Kelsey was a mess, her life was getting complicated and all she needed was her husband.
Like an angel coming down from heaven, Kelsey heard her husband's sweet voice hit her ears and his strong arms embracing her. Without even a word Kelsey put her head in his chest and began to cry. All the tears flowed from her eyes as she held on for dear life to her love and let all of her emotions out. after about five minutes of silence and crying, Kelsey broke away from James and placed a long, passionate kiss on his lips. She wanted to show how much she loved him before she got into the huge mess she was in.
"James, I.. I have some things to tell you. This past week has been terrible for me. I have been keeping some things from you and I know I shouldn't be. Come sit down, you are going to need to," Kelsey said in a quiet voice as tears still fell from her eyes. She took James' hand and led him to a small couch in the room. Sitting down, she waited for him to sit down while she collected her thoughts on what to tell him first.
"One day I.. I was late for a class and.. and the Professor gave me d.. detention. So I w.. went to his office after hours for detention. I knocked on the door and the next thing I knew I was being pulled in and the door disappeared. He... He ripped off my clothing and threw me on the bed. I tried to fight back. I was so weak from my lack of sleep.. and I couldn't stop him... Then he was on top of me and... and..," Kelsey tried to continue but the tears still flowed from her eyes with a great passion. She clutched on to James' hand more, trying to calm herself to finish. "I was raped James," Kelsey finished, more tears falling from her eyes. She felt so ashamed and worthless at the moment. Would James still love her? Would he leave her because of it? Kelsey was scared to tears. |
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Post by padfoot on Jan 24, 2010 23:06:32 GMT -5
--- i'll be there when you close your eyes ,. [/color][/size][/font] ( HOLD YOU TIGHT, SAY GOODNIGHT )[/center]
James held his wife tight in his arms, as close to him as he could as she cried and did not say a word. Obviously she was not okay, and he wanted to know what caused this. There was no way he would stand for her being hurt like this, and whoever caused it, was going to have a piece of his mind. There had to be something he could do, right? After all, that was his job! To make sure nothing ever hurt her.. Right? And if that was anywhere near in his power, he was going to make sure it happened. He was the same way with his sisters, especially Lily recently, but still, that did not feel like anything compared to the way he felt holding Kelsey crying. When he had Lily crying only a few weeks ago, he had felt like doing or saying anything to help, but now, it was like that but magnified by one hundred. He knew there was something he could do to help, and he was going to make sure he did it.
When she finally stopped crying, she said that she had been hiding things from him that she should not have. Which he had had a feeling about. He was worried that maybe he had done something, to make her mad at him. Had she been thinking about someone else? There wouldn't be someone else, why would he even think that? She would never do that to him, he knew she would not. He was just jumping to the worst possible scenario, right? That was what he thought until she told him to sit down and pulled him to the couch. As soon as he got half sitting on the couch she started to talk again. And what she told him... Absolutely horrified him.
There was absolutely no way that what his wife was telling him was true. She said she had been raped. That a Professor had raped her! Weren't students supposed to be able to trust teachers? Had she told her father yet? He would surely have him fired if he did not kill him first. That was his next though, how on earth would he kill this man without anyone finding out? He supposed he could talk to Lily about that one, sure it could end him up with life in Azkaban if anyone ever found out, but it would be worth it after hearing this. Watching his beloved wife fall to pieces, crying her eyes out because someone had violated her like that! Why would someone do that, could they not find satisfaction in someone who truly wanted to be with them? Or was it to get back at her or even him that they had hurt his wife so badly?
She had held his hand tight through the last part of her confession, and she seemed scared to death. James wondered if it was because of what had happened, or if it was because she thought he might leave her for this. He took one of his large hands and put it on her face gently, and took the other and cupped her chin so she would have to look him right in the eyes. He kissed her cheek, not knowing what the best next course of action would be to take. He pulled her into another embracing hug and put his muscular arms around her. "I love you so much. Whoever hurt you is going to pay for it..." he whispered, the first sentence passionately and the second colder than he had ever sounded before. What would he do to this man? He had so many different scenarios in his head right now.
There was always avada kadavera, but that would be quick and painless. If he used curcio on the bastard first, he would at least suffer a little. But there had to be something worse, but then again, what was worse than an unforgivable curse? Supposedly nothing, but he had to assume that what Kelsey was living through right now was much worse than any of those combined. "I promised to take care of you, always. I can't believe this happened..." he said softly, a tear almost escaping his own eye, but he would not let her see it. He had to be the strong one in this tough situation, after all, she had obviously been through enough, she did not need to have that on her shoulders right now too.
James momentarily flashed back to their little wedding. The two of them, and the minister in the old church in Godric's Hallow. "I promise to love and take care of you forever Kelsey. As long as I live, nobody will hurt you. Nobody will stand in the way of our love and I promise to always be there for you. No matter what." he had said when it came time for their vows. He had chosen to go with something from the heart, rather than something traditional, but it seemed like broken promises now. He had not been able to stop what had happened, and now he felt he had let her down somehow. That he should have known, should have been able to stop it. Somehow... He had to make this right, and the fury just kept growing in his chest as he sat on that couch holding his sobbing wife. That was his wife damn it, how could someone do this to him? To Kelsey?
"I'm sorry..." was all he managed to say after that, still feeling as though this entire thing had been something he could have changed. Something that could have been avoided if he had not been so distracted recently. He would have to do something, but for now all he could do was try and console his wife.
tagged kelsey words974 notes My muse kind of caught up with me, but it's not a great post... Hope you like it though! credit ! reinvented LOVE , @ caution
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Post by Kelsey Rachel LeBlanc on Jan 25, 2010 17:44:45 GMT -5
At one moment, Kelsey felt so alone and scared of what James would think. However, when she felt those strong arms wrap around her and those loft lips say I love you, Kelsey felt safe once again. How could one man make her feel so protected when she wasn't? It was like he could make her forget the world. She let more tears fall as she moved closer to him and snuggled into his chest. The love she felt for this boy was one that could never fade. As she heard James' words of anger towards her attacker, she grew fearful. She didn't want James to get involved or hurt. The last thing she would want was for James to get killed by Jack.
"Baby, its fine. There was nothing you could have done to prevent it. Just.. Just promise me you won't go after the guy. You won't win if you do. It.. It was Jack Lestrange who raped me. Please promise me that you won't go after him," Kelsey said to James, her tear filled eyes gleaming at him, hoping that he would agree to it. She would be mortified if James died. There would be no reason for her to live anymore. Kelsey leaned in and kissed James, her love for him pouring through this one kiss. At least there was one good thing in her life, and it was James. He was the umbrella that blocked away all the rain whenever he was around. The perfect piece to her otherwise complicated puzzle. Breaking the kiss, Kelsey looked into his eyes and placed a hand on his cheek.
"I'm fine, really I am. I know Jack deserves to die for what he did to me, but I don't want you to be in any danger. Besides, I think my father called first dibs on him anyways," Kelsey said, her hatred for Jack pouring through her voice. Kelsey never knew that it was possible to hate one person so much like she did for Jack. She wanted him dead, gone from this earth forever. She wanted him to pay for what he did, though she wanted to wait for her revenge. Sweet vengeance would come one day for Kelsey. She would make sure Jack paid for what he did if it was the last thing she did.
"Besides, rape is just a mild thing for what I am about to tell you next. Please James, don't think any differently of me after I tell you this. Do you know what horcruxs are? I'm sure your father must have told you something about them," Kelsey asked, moving her face away from James' and getting more comfortable. She stayed close to him, not wanting his body to leave her side. Kelsey was trying to ease into the whole her being a horcrux thing. It was a lot to take in all at once, Kelsey knew that.
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Post by padfoot on Jan 28, 2010 13:54:04 GMT -5
--- i'll be there when you close your eyes ,. [/color][/size][/font] ( HOLD YOU TIGHT, SAY GOODNIGHT )[/center]
James couldn't believe what he was hearing out of his wifes mouth. She asked him not to go after her rapist! What was she thinking, he didn't care who it was he was still going to mangle the fuck out of him, there was no way he was getting away with this. She told him it was Jack Lestrange, and she thought that would make a difference! No that made it ten thousand times worse. There was no way he was going to sit back and let him do it again to another girl, another persons girlfriend or wife, he could not even stand it that it had happened to his wife. This all couldn't be real... But it was. Well he was sure glad he was going drinking tonight with Michael or he would have probably stormed out of there right then and gone off to kill him. Maybe between Kelsey and Michael they would be able to keep him out of Azkaban after this whole ordeal.
She kept saying that she knew Jack Lestrange deserved to die for what he did, but that she did not want him in any danger. Obviously she had not yet heard about his sister Lily being a death eater and all, or other wise she would be a little less worried about Jack killing him and more of Bellatrix coming after him. After all, he had at one point had every intention of protecting his little sister no matter what the cost because her baby deserved a chance at life. But now he had more pressing matters on his mind. "Maybe thuis will just have to be the first and only thing your father and I agree on. He needs to die, I'll talk to your father and maybe we can come up with something together. Because all I can think of right now is different was to kill him while still torturing him first..." James admitted, sounding more cold than he was sure anyone had ever heard him before, especially Kelsey.
So nothing could possibly get worse than this correct? WRONG! Just when he thought things were at their worst, Kelsey dropped another big bomb shell on her husband. This one was almost as bad, and probably worse once he got the whole story from her. She asked him if he knew what horcruxes were. And that was honestly a kind of stupid question to ask him, but she and anyone else in the school probably did not know he was a history buff when it came to the two wars. He knew almost everything as if he had lived it, because his family had been so deeply involved he wanted to be able to tell anyone anything they wondered about it.
"Yes, I know all about horcurxes, but what does that have to do with you and I?" he asked, expecting and assuming the worst... Somehow Kelsey was a horcrux... But for who, he wondered. It seemed only obvious that it would be Bellatrix, and that would absolutely kill him to hear. And how would that have happened, after all, someone had to make her a horcrux... And he could bet anything it was her no good father who he hated so very much. Even though he knew it was not a personal attack on him it sure felt like anything that could keep them apart happened. How he was going to handle it, he was not sure, but he would do whatever he had to no matter what it meant for himself.
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Post by Kelsey Rachel LeBlanc on Jan 28, 2010 14:48:24 GMT -5
Kelsey knew James deserved the right to get back at Jack for what he did to her. However, inside Kelsey felt as though if James went after Jack, Jack would get back at James by raping her again. The thought of Jack on top of her again, violating her was something that made the blood run cold inside Kelsey. She still had nightmares of Jack's face and laugh as he pounded his over swelled member into her and tearing her apart. It still hurt Kelsey to pee to this day.
"Please, just don't do anything too drastic. I don't want him coming after me again and.. and, you know, raping me again," Kelsey said in a quiet voice, expressing her concerns for what may happen. At least now that James knew she knew that he would try to protect her. She hoped that he wouldn't become too overprotective though. She didn't want him to be one of those husbands who follow your every move and do not let you have time alone. Kelsey knew she needed her alone time. She didn't feel like being by anyone, but James that is.
"It has everything to do with us. See, years ago, Bellatrix Lestrange wanted to be just like her old master and decided to make a horcrux. She went to two loyal death eaters at the time who had just had a child. She made that child a horcrux. Now the parents, they didn't tell the child about the whole horcrux thing until the child began to have bad visions and nightmares. One day, the father finally broke down and told the child about everything. And well James," Kelsey paused and took a deep breath. She grabbed both of James' hands and looked him in the eyes. She knew she didn't even have to finish what she was going to say. She knew James probably put the pieces together but she had to finish it. She needed to say it out loud to him. "I'm a that child. I am a horcrux to Bellatrix Lestrange," Kelsey said in a quiet voice, avoiding eye contact after she finished. She felt a tear gleam from her eyes, feeling so ashamed of what she was.
"I feel so ashamed and so dirty. My father, he didn't know what it would do to me. He told me that if he could change it he would. I am trying to find a way to get rid of it and so far the only way I know how to is.. is death," Kelsey said, another tear falling from her eyes. She hated this. She hated the world. Why did all this have to happen to her? Would James leave her now because she was connected to Bellatrix?
"I wouldn't blame you for anything if you left me or wanted a divorce. I'm just full of problems and you deserve someone better and someone normal. I am too much of a mess," Kelsey said to James, her insecurities showing to her husband. She knew that without James in her life things would be one hundred times harder but all she wanted was for him to be happy. Kelsey let go of his hands and moved away from him slightly. More tears came from her eyes, and she could not stop them from falling. Would James leave her? She didn't know.
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Post by padfoot on Jan 28, 2010 23:16:26 GMT -5
--- i'll be there when you close your eyes ,. [/color][/size][/font] ( HOLD YOU TIGHT, SAY GOODNIGHT )[/center]
It hurt that he had to listen to her talk like this. She seemed so helpless, not like he was used to seeing her. Normally if something was wrong she would find a way to fix it, or on rare occasions like their wedding, she would just go off of an impulse. Just do what felt right. But right now, she was basically begging him to to rip Lestrange into pieces and leaving him to bleed to death with his appendages lying on the ground next to him. That was only one of several scenarios going through James mind right now, but what else could he do but think of how to torture him right back? He had hurt his wife and he was going to pay and that was that. No matter what anyone said. When she said that she thought he might rape her again to get back at him if he tried anything, James shook his head.
"Your dad is already furious enough to go after him, right? And he wont listen no matter how much I beg. If he were going to do something like that he would already have reason to. But if I convince Robert LeBlanc to let me help him with this, then there is no way he could escape the both of us." James said shortly, looking at his wife once more. This just killed him, he hated seeing her like this. "I'm sure that is at least one thing your father and I will be able to agree on..." he said softly and kind of trying to get a smile out of her. Because he knew she really wanted her father to like him, it just had not happened yet and they had been married for a few months now. Oh well, the day had to come, he just hoped that it would not end after this... If he could even agree to let James help him with this, because honestly, who had more right to kill her rapist? Her father or her husband?
After he asked what horcruxes had to do with the two of them and she said that it had everything to do with them. She explained that Bellatrix had wanted to be a lot like her old Lord Voldemort and wanted to created horcruxes for herself. And that she, Kelsey, was a horcrux for Bellatrix. She had just recently found out that all her nightmares and such from before the rape were because she was a horcrux. He pieced together the end of her story long before she finished telling it. Actually, he had almost figured it out from the moment she first asked him about the horcruxes. Because what other logical reason is there for asking him what he knew about them, right? There was no explanation. Nothing that would change what she just told him, and then she broke down upset again.
"I feel so ashamed and so dirty. My father, he didn't know what it would do to me. He told me that if he could change it he would. I am trying to find a way to get rid of it and so far the only way I know how to is.. is death," she told him. It made James very worried to be told this by his wife. They had been through so much already, and the two of them did not need any more drama in their lives. But here it went again, finding them right when he thought things were going to start going good for once! He had just been thinking of making some extra money for their apartment for the summer, and talking to recruiters for Quidditch so he would at least have that for a career when Kelsey went back to Hogwarts the next year and he was without her for the entire two terms.
Now all those plans were going to be spoiled because of stupid death eaters and their stupid ways to try and bring back the old days. The days when people really feared death eaters. The days when no one was safe no matter which way they turned. Now things were different, things were better for their generation, but the way he had seen it recently it would not stay that way for long. After all, Lily was a death eater, and Kelsey was a horcrux. Something told him that his family was just not safe as long as there are still Death Eaters out there. The name Potter just had to be cursed somehow, jinxed so that they would be sucked into this along with their families. None of it seemed fair at all.
"I wouldn't blame you for anything if you left me or wanted a divorce. I'm just full of problems and you deserve someone better and someone normal. I am too much of a mess," He took a deep breath and looked her right in the face. "I am never leaving you. You can ask me that all you want, tell me its not safe every day I am with you and I will still be with you. I love you. You are everything to me Kelsey Potter. And I am going to do my damnedest to make sure you're safe. I swear, I will." She leaned into him and started crying about halfway through him saying all this. He kissed her forehead and stroked her hair softly, still holding her close to him. He never wanted to let her go again. But that feeling was also compromised by a strong nicotine craving right now. Which he knew was mostly because of all the stress his brain was under right now, but it didn't make it any easier. He ignored it for now though, and just sat there with his wife in his arms.
"I will never leave you. No matter what." he promised her.
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Post by Kelsey Rachel LeBlanc on Jan 29, 2010 12:55:33 GMT -5
In a perfect world, James and Robert would get along. Sadly, this was not a perfect world. Kelsey knew that they would never get along. They were total opposites with only one common factor, their love for Kelsey. Kelsey wished and wished they could get along. Maybe someday they would for her sake. If she had to put up with anymore fighting she would surely explode soon. Maybe if she wished hard enough all of her life problems would go away.
"Okay, I suppose. Just please, let my father do the major stuff. I wouldn't be able to live if you went to azkaban and left me all alone," Kelsey said to James, looking at him with loving eyes again. She loved that he was willing to do some much to get back at the bastard who caused her so much pain. It really proved to her that he really loved her. Hopefully this was a love that would never fade and not like the love her parents had. Her father had told her that he had a mistress. Even though Kelsey hated her mother with a passion, it was still very damaging to her to hear her father say he loved someone else outside their family. A major part of her was jealous that there was some other woman in her father's life that he was showing love towards. She was scared that this mistress would make Robert hate her like he did before. Kelsey couldn't handle not having her father in her life again.
Kelsey could read the worry and the fear from James as she told him about being a horcrux. She was surprised at herself that she managed to spit those words out of her mouth. However, James' reaction was not what she was expecting. It made her fill up with love and a small flicker of hope that maybe everything was not messed up. As he reassured her that he loved her, Kelsey could feel a flush going on her cheeks. She heard him say Kelsey Potter and she couldn't help but smile. The whole name thing still struck her as odd. she didn't feel like a Potter yet. She still felt like a totally dysfunctional LeBlanc like she had always been.
"I'm scared, James. I'm scared of what is going to happen to me. They.. They are going to try to get me to go to their side. I don't want to be on any side. I feel like I am in the middle of this whole thing," Kelsey said holding on to James for her dear life. It felt so good to get everything off of her chest and be honest with James for once in her life. Wiping her tears, Kelsey lifted up her head and placed a passionate kiss on James' lips. It still amazed her how their lips fit so perfectly together, like they were made for each other. Breaking the kiss, Kelsey looked into his eyes and smiled.
"Oh James, there is so much you don't know about me and so much I am ashamed to tell you. I fear that you will think I am a different person," Kelsey said, still looking into his eyes. She had yet to tell him about her secret meetings with Bellatrix. She never told him how she once thought about moving in with Bellatrix or that she had got secret training from Bellatrix before her and him got together. She never told him how she had feelings for Scorpius still or how he had been trying to get her to join the Death Eaters. She hadn't told James yet that she was now an alcoholic who couldn't go a day without a drink. How could she keep so much from her husband? It was simple. She kept this hidden because of fear.
"I had a meeting with your father and I told him everything. I told him about me being raped, about the horcrux, about our marriage. He said he could give me occlumency lessons so that I could fight off Bellatrix and she can't get into my head anymore," Kelsey told James, feeling relieved that she got yet another secret off of her chest. Kelsey had been having occlumency lesson with the famous Harry Potter. He seemed to be a really nice guy and was welcoming towards Kelsey entering their family, to her delight.
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Post by padfoot on Feb 2, 2010 23:31:02 GMT -5
--- i'll be there when you close your eyes ,. [/color][/size][/font] ( HOLD YOU TIGHT, SAY GOODNIGHT )[/center]
Finally Kelsey gave in to his reasoning, and agreed that he could go and hunt down Jack... Only with the help of her dad of course, which is the only way she would feel safe about him doing that and he knew it. Which meant sooner rather than later, he was going to have to go have a chat with his father-in-law. That should prove to be interesting. Being head boy it was hard to avoid the Headmaster, but when the Headmaster hated your guts, it was a little easier. And he had done so well he had not so much as run into him in the halls since the Christmas Ball, and that was the way he liked it. Of course, nothing could stay good forever, could it?
"Baby, I'll be fine. I won't go to Azkaban. I'm smarter in the being sneaky department than most people give me credit for. The only ones who will know are you, me, your dad, and Jack." he said, finishing that sentence in his head with, and Jack won't be breathing long enough to reminisce on it after the fact. He had to admit though, this would definitely be the area in which he would be asking his sister Lily for advice, however much he hated to admit that fact. It still sickened him that his little sister was a death eater and he did everything he could to keep it quiet, but still, it was his sister!
Besides the point, he now looked back at his wife, who's eyes were still filled with tears, he was not quite sure what to do at this point. How could he console her? He was not a girl, and for once he did not seem to know everything about them. Normally, he would know exactly what to do to lift her spirits, but this was just awful and he had never known something like this in person. So how should he handle it? Besides trying to hold in all his bent up rage against Jack at the moment, which grew every second he was still alive. When he was done here, he was supposed to meet Michael for drinks, and then tomorrow, first thing in the morning he would be at the Headmasters door to speak with him.
As Kelsey started to talk again, her eyes welled up with more un-fallen tears. She was trying to be stronger than she had to be here and he knew it. He kept her close and in his arms the whole while she spoke. He was not sure what else there was that he could do. He needed to do something, but what? What do you do to help the love of your life when you find out their life is in danger? And that yours possibly is too? At the moment, he did not care what became of his own life, he just had to make sure hers was protected. Come to think of it, after her father and he killed off Jack Lestrange, there would indeed be some questioning by one James Potter to find out what in his right mind made him think having his daughter be a horcrux would be a good idea!
She told him that she thought maybe he would think she was someone different if she told him everything. As much as she feared it he hoped she would know that it was not true. He would love her always, no matter what happened. "You do understand that nothing will ever make me not love you right? Nothing you can say or do will make me love you any less. Even if you became the evil of all evil's, Kelsey, I would find a way to bring you back. I wouldn't just sit by and watch that happen, I just won't." he said shortly after her first little speech. He still stroked her hair as she spoke again, and tried to calm her down so she was not so panicked and upset through her talking. He needed to be able to understand every word she said in the context it was meant, other wise he might say the wrong thing. And James was notorious for saying the wrong thing at the wrong time.
The next thing sure surprised him a lot. She had already started occlumency lessons with his father. Which mean, scratch that one off his list of things to do to help! She seemed happy with the fact that she had already met his father once again, and obviously she liked the fact that Harry was accepting of their marriage. Unlike a certain Headmaster of Hogwarts was concerned. James had always been sure they would get a long and that his parents would like Kelsey. After they got over the fact that they got married without his entire family, not the way his parents would have wanted it. Maybe someday the two could have a real wedding, but right now it seemed that had bigger things to worry about. "I see... Well, I'm glad my dad's helping already. I wish I had known first, but don't worry about it. I'm not mad..." he said to her, kissing her forehead once again before shifting her to see him.
"I love you, just tell me what I can do to help you." he said before kissing her gently on the lips and standing up off the couch. "You don't mind do you? I really need a cigarette after all this..." he said, pulling the pack of Marlboros and the lighter out of his pocket, waiting on her approval.
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Post by Kelsey Rachel LeBlanc on Feb 3, 2010 16:08:02 GMT -5
Deep down inside, Kelsey was scared. It was not a fear for her being a horcrux, or that she was raped, it was a fear that her and James would fall out of love. Growing up, Kelsey never really had a positive role model towards a healthy relationship. Her parents were always fighting and Kelsey knew that a divorce was going to happen. She didn't know if she could have a successful relationship. What if her relationship with James turned as badly as the one with her parents did? It would be devastating to Kelsey. He was her only love and she did not plan on losing that love.
Kelsey hated how insecure everything around her was now. Before, when she was a child, everything was black and white. There was a right way to do things and a wrong thing and if you did the right thing you would be safe. Now, as she was in the final stages of becoming an adult, she found herself with different options for different choices. One choice she may make may have ten right options and ten wrong options or some in between. How did she know if she was making the right choices? She wished life wasn't so hard, but she knew that it was and that she should just suck it up.
"I understand and I love you no matter what too. I'm just scared of what could happen if you found out some things. I've never really seen a functional relationship before and I am scared that we will turn into a dysfunctional one. I mean my only experience with a relationship is by watching the one my parents have and they are on the verge of possibly getting a divorce," Kelsey said, speaking from her heart and looking into his eyes. What did she do to deserve such a wonderful guy like James? Most men would of ran away at the first sight of all Kelsey's problems. But James stayed with her and she loved him for that.
"I didn't even know I was going to meet your father. I was just in the Three Broomsticks having a drink and he was there. We got to talking and he ended up giving me lessons," Kelsey told James with a small smile on her face. Kelsey watched as James took out his cigarettes and couldn't help but smile a bit. Sure she hated his little smoking habit, but it reminded her that she too had an addiction. Kelsey nodded her head yes to indicate that James could have a smoke. She really didn't care about the fumes coming from the cigarette. Kelsey moved towards her bag and began to dig into it, pulling out a silver flask filled with vodka.
"Baby, I think we are too serious. I mean we hardly have any fun anymore. I think we should just take the rest of tonight and have a drink and just let go. It has been ages since I've had you alone in a room after all," Kelsey said winking then standing up with a smirk on her face. It was true, James and Kelsey hardly ever had time alone together. There always seemed to be someone with them and Merlin knows they hardly were ever sexually active together. Kelsey took the cap off of the flask and took a huge drink of the Vodka, loving the feeling it gave her. She advanced towards James, smirking and extending the flask to see if he wanted a drink. Kelsey knew that she needed to relieve all of the sexual and mental frustration she was having.
WORDS: 606?!
LYRICS: Gravity - Sara Bareilles?!
OUTFIT: click here?!
COMMENTS: haha I think Kelsey is a tad horny?!
CREDIT: This is a Kelsey creation and totally from her zany imagination! Text thingy was done by her also. Steal it and die.
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Post by padfoot on Feb 8, 2010 8:40:30 GMT -5
--- i'll be there when you close your eyes ,. [/color][/size][/font] ( HOLD YOU TIGHT, SAY GOODNIGHT )[/center]
Kelsey explained her biggest fear with their relationship was that she had never really had the model for a real realtionship like James had. His parents had been together forever, and never really fought that much, unlike hers. His parents were basically the model couple that anyone could base their relationship after, and hers were the ones you looked to for possible divorce advice. Which was something that James absoltuely did not want to see happen to the two of them. He could no longer imagine a life without Kelsey, especially now. She was no longer Kelsey LeBlanc, his girlfriend, she was Kelsey Potter, his wife. And he refused to let his wife go for anything, and he understood where that fear of hers could have come from. It was logical that you would not really know how to work a relationship when you had never seen one work out well to start with.
James smiled at her once more, and he softly whispered, "You don't have anything to worry about. Just follow my lead, just like a dance." He was more or less trying to tell her that if she followed her heart and the way he was trying to direct their relationship, they shouldn't have any problems. After all, he had promised he would never do anything to hurt her again. And as long as he never got drunk alone in a pub full of girls, he figured they were pretty safe to say nothing would happen. After all, Kelsey would not do that to him, and even before all of this James would not have done it to her. He would just feel ten thousand times worse about it after tonight if he ever did let anything slip. If he made a stupid mistake that he had to hope she would forgive him for.
Next thing James knew she was telling him that she had been at the Three Broomsticks, drinking obviously, and saw his father. That they had gotten to talking, and to him it sounded like Harry offered to help by giving her the Occlumency lessons. Which was a good thing, because it cut out all the middle man time that James would have been going back and forth trying to set this up. Although, he wondered if his father had even recognized Kelsey, or if she had introduced herself as his wife? Or if she had not said anything about it at all? Oh well, either way it did not matter too much. He was just happy that his father was able to teach her such a thing, because the stories back in the day suggested that he was not quite so good at it back then. Then again, what did James know, he was only his oldest son, and the one who tried to learn everything about the war it was possible to store in his head. Even stupid little trinquets of information like that he found to be something important. Because then he knew about them when situations like this one arose.
When James pulled out his pack of Marlboros it was hard to wait for her approval before lighting up. Stupid addiction, he knew he needed to break free from it. But when things like this, all this stress came down on his head at once, it was good to have that as an escape, even for momentary relief. As soon as her head nodded yes, his lighter was to the end of the smoke and he inhaled it gladly. The nicotine felt nice in his lungs and the menthol felt cool on his throat. Just what he needed at the moment. She watched the fumes come off the cigarette slowly, fading away a few feet above them, and he watched them as well. It was funny how mezmorizing it could be to watch. The two of them shared the second addiction of his, and to say James was generally an alcoholic was an understatement. Drinking every day, through out the day, and all night until he passed out, even when he was in a good mood. That was just his personality anymore, and he was amazed his parents did not see that when he stayed with them.
Kelsey soon enough pulled out her little silver flask filled with Vodka and sipped it, handing it out to him right about the time she told him that they needed to have some fun tonight. He completely agreed, silently nodding at her and taking the flask to sip it. She told him that it had been ages since they had just relaxed and had a drink together, and of course, he knew what else was on her mind. She was obviously in the mood to fool around a little, which surprised him after hearing about her being raped. But of course, maybe this was just because she no longer wanted to feel like the last one she slept with was a rapist, or maybe she just wanted to be with him again. Either way, he was always up for that! He sipped her flask once more before handing it back to her and taking another drag off the cigarette. He smiled at her and said, "I was supposed to meet Michael tonight for drinks... But he can wait until another night. Would you rather stay here and drink, or go to Hogsmeade?" he asked her with a mischevious smile had had not had for quite some time now.
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Post by Kelsey Rachel LeBlanc on Feb 8, 2010 21:05:15 GMT -5
Words could not describe how Kelsey felt about James. it was a while bunch of amazing emotions rolled up inside Kelsey. Sometimes, when she was with him, she felt as though she may explode with love, however corny that sounds. She never thought a person could handle all of her problems and insecurities that she had in her life. James seemed to be handling everything she threw at him very well. Kelsey was not perfect and she didn't expect James to be perfect either. She knew that she would mess up in this marriage thing, and she knew James would always be there to help her out if she messed up. Maybe she wouldn't be a totally bad wife. late at night, when she wasn't thinking about the ten million problems in her life, she would lay in bed thinking about the future with James. She could picture herself coming home to their little house after a long day of work, possibly to children, and begin to make supper. Then James would come home and they would eat together and talk about their days. Then they would relax for a bit by the fire and cuddle then head off to bed for some fun. She would imagine them having peaceful lives which she knew would never happen. They were both destined to have chaotic lives. Maybe that was why they were so perfect for each other.
Kelsey knew that she shouldn't be having sex just yet. After all she had just been raped. But Kelsey saw things in a different point of view. In her mind, with everything going on, she could die at any moment. If she died right then, then last person whom she would have had sex with would have been creepy gross Jack Lestrange. She didn't want it to be like that. She had wanted her one and only to be James and since Jack took that away from her, she wanted to make sure that her last time would be with James. She wanted her sexual experiences to be good from then on. Kelsey loved James and she wanted to express it through this bond of two bodies.
"Well, we could go to Hogsmeade if you really wanted to but," Kelsey stopped, throwing the flask on the couch. She moved closer to James and smirked before she leaned in and began to kiss his neck. She placed small kisses along his neck and collarbone as she moved her hands to his shirt and began to unbutton it. She moved her lips from his neck to his now exposed chest and placed two small kisses before moving to his lips and placing a small soft kiss on them. Leaving his soft lips, Kelsey smirked and stepped back, grabbing the flask form the couch. "I would much rather stay here and have some fun right away. It is your decision though," Kelsey finished then took a drink from the flask. She was teasing James and she knew it. She had no intentions of going to the village tonight. She was going to have all her fun right here in this room.
Practically knowing the decision that James would make, Kelsey walked over to the door and locked it, turning around to smirk at James. She wanted him to know that they were not going to be leaving anytime soon. She finished off the flask of vodka, loving the rush it gave her before she threw it somewhere on the ground as she walked back towards James. Kelsey stood there before him and ran a hand through his hair, staring into his beautiful face and taking every bit of him in. Kelsey couldn't help but smile, her love for the man before her radiating off of her every being.
"So James, what do you want to do? Because either way, I am your for the entire night," Kelsey said in a seductive tone. She gazed into his eyes, getting lost in the orbs. Her hand fell from the side of his head back to her side as she waited for him to make the next move. One thing was for sure, It was going to be a long, long, long night for both Kelsey and James.
WORDS: 707?!
LYRICS: Gravity - Sara Bareilles?!
OUTFIT: click here?!
COMMENTS: yay for my long post?!
CREDIT: This is a Kelsey creation and totally from her zany imagination! Text thingy was done by her also. Steal it and die.
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Post by padfoot on Feb 24, 2010 9:53:51 GMT -5
--- i'll be there when you close your eyes ,. [/color][/size][/font] ( HOLD YOU TIGHT, SAY GOODNIGHT )[/center]
James continued to puff on his cigarette and watching Kelsey closely. She seemed to be okay now, no more tears and much more calm. Although that might just be her steady diet of vodka, but either way it made him feel better knowing she was not about to go into hysteria. He honestly wouldn't know what to do if something like that happened, after all he is only a seventeen year old guy. What do they know anyway, right? Well, he knew a lot to be honest but not as much as he plays off knowing about the opposite sex and the way their brains work. That was something he was pretty sure guys were never meant to understand, which also made him not question her want to drink and have some fun with him. Yes, his wife had just been raped, but if she wanted to have sex tonight, who was he to keep her from what she desired?
Now, maybe that was just his penis talking, but it all seemed rational at the moment. Even though if anyone outside the two of them saw this they would not understand in the least. James never wanted Kelsey to be with anyone else, and now she had been. Not by choice but by force. So now it was time he took her back into his arms, and made her remember how good it can be when you are not being told no is not an option. He had mumbled before about having been supposed to meet Michael for drinks that night, but she said that they could go if he wanted, but she would much rather stay here. That was his first indication that where his brain (and other body parts) were leading his thoughts was correct. She began to kiss on his neck, and that was all the proof he needed. He closed his eyes against her soft touch, still hitting the cigarette periodically.
When she said that she would rather stay here and have some fun right away, he smiled and looked back to her as she stopped kissing his neck only for a moment. He kissed her cheek and stood up, walking over to the window which he waved his wand at to open. He took a final drag off the cigarette and flicked the butt out the now open window. Turning to look at his wife, he smiled. "Well, why don't we have a couple drinks here then?" he said shortly after she told him that no matter what he chose, she would be his for the night. Which was exactly what he had hoped for the rest of their lives when he asked her to marry him. But the main reason for it being a big deal tonight was because so often they were both busy and did not get to spend even an entire afternoon together. Tonight, nothing would tear them apart.
James took another flick of his wand and a couple of rather large bottles appeared on the old teachers desk at the front of the room. One was filled with whatever vodka Kelsey had just been carrying in her flask, the other, was James favorite whiskey. One bottle a piece, and with the way the two of them drank, and the way James tolerance was towards alcohol, they would probably drink it all. He swished his wand once more and a couple glasses landed next to the bottles and he smiled. He walked over and poured her a glass of the vodka and himself one of the whiskey. "I do love you. Always know that." he told her as he sat back down, handing her her drink. He kissed her on the lips, and the cheeck once more, then the jaw line, her throat, collarbone, all reaching his way farther and farther down, but for once, he stopped at her breasts. "I'll have to control myself. At least until we've had a few drinks, eh?" he said with a grin, sipping the whiskey which went smoothly down his throat, no chaser needed.
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Post by Kelsey Rachel LeBlanc on Feb 26, 2010 18:44:20 GMT -5
Kelsey didn't know what was coming over her. She wanted James so badly that it was insane. She felt an energy surge through her body that made her want to throw James to the floor and have him right then and there. Kelsey had been bottling so much anger, rage and emotions that she needed to let it out some how and the only way she could think of was through sex. She knew that she couldn't seem to desperate or needy. She wanted to make this night last for a long time. After all, it was only one of the very few nights that she got to spend alone with her loving husband.
"A few drinks sounds amazing, love," Kelsey said with a huge smile as she watched James flick the butt out the window. Someday she would get James to quit that nasty habit. She didn't want him to make the chances of him dying higher. She knew that she would not be able to live without him in her life. The pain alone would kill her if not the insanity of knowing that the one you love would no longer be with you. Kelsey knew that she would change into a completely different person if she ever found out that James was dead. Kelsey had made herself very comfortable on the couch as she watched James pour her a glass of vodka and himself some whiskey. She felt her taste buds dance with joy as she waited for the drink to come to her.
"I know and I love you too. Always know that," Kelsey said with a huge smile on her face as she took the glass from James. She felt her whole body dance in glee as James kissed her on the lips then moved his lips down her body. She had no clue how this man's kisses made her feel so weak in the knees and so at ease. She felt bolts of electricity flow through her body as James kissed her collar bone.
"Oh you really know how to tease me, James Potter," Kelsey said with a smirk and a look that said that she didn't want him to stop. Kelsey took a long sip of her vodka, practically finishing the glass. Kelsey kicked off her shoes as she pushed her feet onto the couch and relaxed more. She cuddled her body towards James, just wanting to feel him there next to her. That is really all she needed in life. Just to have James right there next to her. Kelsey could feel her body scream loudly for James. There was no denying the fact that she wanted him. Smirking, Kelsey moved her head so that she was looking at James and placed a small kiss on his lips. She then turned around and sat on his lap as if she was straddling him. She leaned in and kissed him again, passion flowing through her kiss towards him.
"Unlike you James, I can't control myself," Kelsey said with a sexy smirk as she leaned in and kissed him yet again. Kelsey felt her world explode through the kiss. However, she didn't want to be the only person in charge here. She would have to control her wild urges slightly until James made his move. Hopefully he would choose not to continue teasing her or she would go insane with the urges coursing through her body.
WORDS: 574?!
LYRICS: Gravity - Sara Bareilles?!
OUTFIT: click here?!
COMMENTS: this is short, but i was tired?!
CREDIT: This is a Kelsey creation and totally from her zany imagination! Text thingy was done by her also. Steal it and die.
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