Post by lisa on Aug 5, 2010 15:28:14 GMT -5
Look what you did.
Is this who you wanted me to be?
Well it's not me.
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There were times when Lisa wasn't a good friend. When she didn't like anything that happened to her friends or they said something that made her think they were freaks and started to change - in her opinion - for bad, Lisa just didn't pay attention to them until they showed they were worth enough to get her friendship back. Or everytime she got a wonderful boyfriend she seemed to be losing head for, Lisa simply forgot about the whole world and in result about her friends and their problems. She wasn't there for them when they needed her. She wasn't there to support them. She claimed no interest. Of course it wasn't routine. Her friends and family could usually count on her - when she wasn't too busy. She could help when asked for. She could help when that was something that took her heart or she was involved with. No one ever said that Lisa does things selflessly.
After miscarriage Lisa wasn't herself. Lisa didn't want the baby. She didn't care about it. Yet it made her broken when it was gone. Maybe it was because she didn't plan on miscarring. She didn't want to lose it that way. She wanted to take it away, yes. But she wanted to use an abortion, make a responsible, mature decision, not out of impulse. She thought about it many times, walked through prons and cons. More was for getting rid of the baby of the werewolf. But Lisa was late with that. Someone or something made things go other way. And even though Lisa didn't want the baby she felt that it was part of her and now was gone. It was like she lost some important organ she didn't care about yet it was needed.
She had many things to catch up with, like school including homework. Of course teachers treated her less strictly because of what she's been trough. Yet it was so hard to get back to real life. More than social girl that Lisa was before seemed to disappear. She seemed to be everywhere before. She wanted to know newest gossips and maybe use them to ruin someone's life. Now she happened to hide from the world. Places she visited had limited to hospital wing, her dorm, class rooms, prefects lounge and bathroom. She didn't want people see her like that. She needed time to get back to her old self that people knew and loved. Well, not everyone but her closest friends and family did. And now Lisa was sitting on a couch in the prefects lounge staring at the wall as if she found something interesting there.
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TAGS: Kevin
WORDS: 450
LYRICS: It's not me by 3 Doors Down
OUTFIT: here
NOTES: none
CREDITS: lisathecat of CAUTION 2.0!