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Post by kiranbloom on May 25, 2010 19:01:56 GMT -5
 
Kiran didn’t know what to do right now. The extreme beauty that surrounded her, only made her angrier, the soft cool sand from under her feet squished between her pedicured toes, and felt good, cooling her heels. The designer wedges she once had on were discarded next to one of the shiny medal support posts for the swing. The long blond legs, attached to her girlish frame were dangling from the swing lifeless, and dewy looking. The dark denim shorts hugged her frame perfectly, giving her legs added length. The white button down she wore seemed to glow from the distant streetlights that dully illuminated the area around her. Some of the buttons on her shirt were a bit open, letting her viewer see her ample cleavage and her light pink bra. The sleeves were rolled up, and her dewy arms on display. The teen let the swing move slightly, not allowing her feet to come off the ground. She made eyecontact with her bag and hat from earlier. They, along with some shopping bags, sat by her insanely gorgeous shoes.
What exactly had happened to her? Kiran looked blankly up to the big, full moon. She knew this summer was a huge bust, nothing happened of significance, except for getting a little bit tanner, and a little bit thinner, but other than that, she was the same then when school let out in the summer. She continued to look at the moon for some meaning, wanting only to get something exciting to happen. When was it her turn? When was she going to have some fun. She gripped the metal chains of the swing, and sighed, her shoulders relaxing as she leaned back, moving her toes to a cooler part in the untouched sand.
She knew it was dangerous to stay out this late, with a full moon, alone. She had known better then to do that, but something today told her she was safe, and just looking for a little attention. Looking down at her lap, she let go of the metal chains and felt the ends of her hair, twirling them absent mindedly. Maybe, excitement would be coming for her soon…
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NOTESat a beach park place
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Post by lisa4 on May 27, 2010 6:41:29 GMT -5
Jake Michael Blackwell was his full name. And he, being a typical teenager with typical problems for his age, couldn’t find his rightful place in the world. He always thought he was right where he belonged but his life got complicated and he wasn’t so sure anymore. After he did horrible things to his half-sister, Therese, completely out of anger and because of his natural gay intolerance, Jake was in a very bad mood all the time and wanted to be alone. He skipped some classes, rarely showed in the common room, and then just went out of town to rethink everything. He got back to Hogwarts barely before finals. His absence troubled with his relationships and what the most important with a relationship he currently was in with Carina Dolohov. Jake didn’t know she missed closeness, that she needed more attention. He didn’t know that his so-called best friend, Vince LeBlanc liked his girlfriend probably as much as he did. He didn’t know that he could not leave her alone with him for so long. Well, the truth was that he trusted both of them enough to be blind at what might happen between them. But they fell for each other leaving Jake with a broke heart. But being madly in love with Rina, Jake forgave her cheating on him. And when he hoped everything will be alright, when he thought Carina and he could start over, she sent one of her best friends, Petra Connor (adopted Riddle) to break up with him. It crashed his heart into little pieces. He couldn’t believe that when he needed her the most she just simply dumped him asking her friend to do this for her.
Jake was depressed, very depressed. He didn’t know how it happened that he passed every subject that good while his mind was somewhere else. The school term was over and students got back homes for vacation. But where Jake disappeared again was a mystery. He didn’t want to do anything stupid due to the depression he was in. He didn’t want to hurt anyone because now he knew what that meant. So, Michael Blackwell’s son spent about two or more weeks as a loner somewhere in Ireland leaving as a muggle, playing sad songs on his guitar on the streets. He had no idea about muggle money but he was mature enough to cope with it. Finally, Jake got back home, happier from some reason and more confident than he was before the break up. He still felt bad with that, yes. And he still felt bad with what he’d done to Thess. But he could live with that. He knew when the time comes he would be able to tell her the truth and explain himself. He didn’t ask about forgiveness but he wanted things to be even slightly as they were before.
A fate wanted that he had met love of his life - the one that hurt him so much – again. And he just melted before her again. He loved her so much and couldn’t get away. Though, Carina was engaged for the second time. Not to a shitty as he thought guy whom Kevin Lott was, but to Scorpius Malfoy himself. And how Jake could compare himself with him. Dolohovs and Malfoys known each other for ages and Jake couldn’t fight them and their decision. But it didn’t stop him with getting close to Carina again. At first he just wanted to be her friend again, the one she could always count for. But then, then his feelings won him over. He couldn’t help that he hearted Rina so much. And to think that it was she who was into him at first, and it was she who chose him but never said she loved him.
This summer Jake met a girl he didn’t share a word with before. Kiran Bloom was her name. She was his age, because even though he took classes for a younger year he was born the same year as she. Old story from the time when Jake and Therese were 10 going on 11. As not many people knew Therese was only a half-sister of Jake and Joanna Blackwell. Their father, Michael, had an affair few months earlier when Jake was conceived. And his lover was from Sweden where she got back after he finally told her he had wife. Therese grew up in Sweden and Norway part of her childhood but when she turned eleven. Her mother passed away and she was sent to her father and also accepted into Hogwarts. But Jake was so discontent of having a new member of his family, a new sister who was a stranger to him for his entire life that he refused to go to Hogwarts with her so no one thought she was his sister. But after some time he accepted her into family and loved as if she was there from beginning, nearly as much as his baby sister, Joanna or Jo-Jo how he liked to call her.
But going back to that gorgeous blond haired girl he had met, it was like a new wind for him. She was so beautiful in his eyes; beside he had a weakness for blonds. And Jake had a feeling that Kiran had something for him too. Yes, she was obviously into him considering that they flirted and kissed and once spent the night together at his place. When Jake was around her, well alone with her he didn’t think about Carina, that much. Yes, because she seemed to be always on his mind. Maybe he was a fool for still loving her but he didn’t care. A fate wanted that after the night spent with Kiran, she left some things in his room and Jake met Carina again. And that summer, every time the two former love birds saw each other they ended up making up and in result having sex usually in his bed. It happened again that Jake forgot to lock the door. Well, he didn’t expect anyone walking in anyway. Jo was somewhere out with her friends, Therese downstairs in the living-room and their parents out for work. He didn’t expect Kiran walking in on them. He cursed himself for not locking the door because even though he was in love with Carina he had a thing for Kiran too. Maybe it was just a little crush but Jake wanted to keep her by his side at least till the new school year or maybe more. But he was there with Carina and they just started. He wanted to please her so badly that he had to be rude to Kiran. He was so torn.
Jake made a day off from any meetings just to rethink some things. He knew that Therese had some right disapproving his complicated relationship with Rina. He knew it was wrong and so did Carina. But they seemed to not be able to stay away from each other. Jake had to think things over and what he really wanted. He spent the whole day in his room coming out only for meals and to the toilet. He barely smoked but that day he smoked like the whole pack. When it was dark enough outside Jake put his legs down from his desk and stood up from a chair he’s been sitting in. He walked out his room and into the bathroom. He took a shower, washed his teeth and put on some fresh clothes. Nothing exhausting happened that day so he wasn’t sleepy at all. He decided to go for a walk by seashore. The full moon was high in the sky but he didn’t care about werewolves. Well, he didn’t even think about them that day. But then again he always thought that they had hydrophobia. So he didn’t give a damn about it.
Walking on the beach with his hands put in his jeans’ pockets Jake didn’t notice when he neared the beach park. Well, he could always sit on a swing and who knows maybe swing a little. But from not so far he saw someone already sat there. Despite the darkness he saw it was obviously a girl due to the outfit then hair. Who said males couldn’t have long hair? But he didn’t recognize who it was yet. Well it could be some random girl he didn’t know. But Jake didn’t care that much. He walked over to the swing and to his surprise he recognized Kiran in that girl. Oh fuck. he thought but it was too late to move back. She probably already noticed him. "Um, hello."
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Post by kiranbloom on May 29, 2010 6:26:46 GMT -5
Taking in a deep breath of the cool, salty, nighttime beach air, Kiran threw her head back, focusing on the stars. She marveled slightly at how bright they were, as she questioned her recent actions. Was she even being fair to the people around her as she single handedly pulled the thread of their sweater of life? It wasn’t even that she despised these people, it was for her own guilty pleasure, her own sweet little world. Hm, maybe that was being a little too over dramatic for the situation, but she had made Carina cry, in her hour of need. A feeling of self righteousness swelled over her as she congratulated herself. She knew this would affect Scorpius too, even if just a little bit. Now, Jake was the only one who was left, and she had no clue how to handle the situation.
Before she had walked in on that whore Carina and Jake, she had started to like him, and it bothered her that she had to swallow her pride to do so, and he took that swallowed pride, and wrapped it around her neck and pulled. Rolling her shoulders, she looked to the shoreline, watching the waves walk in and out slowly. It was very relaxing, surprisingly. She took a deep breath as her hands moved up and down the metal chains on the swing. She was most likely going to fall asleep on the beach, It was so calming.
Kiran’s head turned quickly at the sound of footsteps, her eyes glowing evilly as if she were to jump out of the swing and turn into a werewolf in one swift motion. Damn, she wished she could do that…The person looked familiar, oh fuck…. It was Jake… Tilting her head to the left, and letting her blond locks fall over her shoulders, behind her head, framing her face in a sweet way. The blond blinked twice, and then sighed. “Oh, look, it’s the minuteman…” she raised an eyebrow to him, figuring that as bound to get a comment, “Are you already on to the next one, or are you in reverse?” She blinked dumbly at him, and let herself swing a little, kicking both legs. She knew the best thing to say was to in fact say not a thing. But instead, to look at him blankly, as if waiting for an explanation for his actions.
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NOTESat a beach park place
TAGjake m. blackwell
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Post by lisa4 on Jun 15, 2010 5:25:44 GMT -5
Women in his life gave him a hard time lately. He argued with his little sister, then with the other one too. His ex-girlfriend, Carina couldn’t stay away from him and it seemed she didn’t know what she wanted. But Jake didn’t know that too. He was confused, torn apart. Yes, he loved her but he knew he couldn’t be all happy with her anymore. It was complicated. But in his opinion it was for her happiness. He didn’t really care for his own. His mom gave him a hard time too. She started to be overprotective as she noticed the changes in him. It annoyed him because he didn’t like parents prying into his life. He told her she should’ve been worried more about girl than him but it didn’t help. Another woman giving him hard time was of course a girl on the swing in front of him. Jake wasn’t sure how he felt about her but she had something that made him want her. Maybe her blond hair, maybe her smile or the way she was. He didn’t know. But his sister would say that it was subconscious want of forgetting about his love to Carina and falling for someone else. She would’ve had a lot of right. But Jake being stubborn probably wouldn’t admit to that.
Jake didn’t like the way Kiran greeted him. But then again he couldn’t blame her for it. It was he who was mean to her. But it was the way he was when Carina was around. Everything seemed to freeze when the two were together and they didn’t care about others. Blackwell took a deep breath and shook his head. He walked over to the swing and leaned against the metal construction crossing his arms on his chest. "Neither of it or so it seems." he told her. "Just went out for a night walk. And you?" he informed her. |
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Post by kiranbloom on Jun 16, 2010 11:05:03 GMT -5
Kiran stared at him blankly. She didn’t even want to do this right now. Did he even know who she was? Did he care? Hell no. He obviously didn’t. Kiran had formed a bad habit over the years; she had learned to measure self worth by how she perceived by other people. The blond right now, felt completely replaceable. She found that this summer, which was forming into the worst summer of her life, that no one cared what the blond did. She wasn’t admired. She was used for sex, then thrown aside when someone else better came along. She didn’t know what true feelings to show, so she stayed quiet.
Clearing her throat slightly, she looked to her manicured toes. He had to be kidding her. Aww, poor little puppy, lost without Carina holding his leash. “You know shes using you, right?” Kiran finally said. “She has you so completely whipped, and under her will, that shes using you for whatever her whims suggest” She still didn’t look up. “And you used me. Apparently I wasn’t good enough for you, or enough, or whatever, and you used me for your pleasure, and then tossed me aside.” The blond finally looked to him. She knew there was no emotion invested in her. There never was. As powerful and high and mighty she had become at school, she still often got played by the mates whom she spun a trap for. It seemed as though someone always found the scissors and cut the strings, making her fall. “It kind of makes you look like a giant tool”
“I’m not playing this game anymore” she muttered to herself. She had to be strong here, no bending, no caving. The Alpha blond had to finally act like it damnit! She pushed her overgrown bangs out of her eyes.
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NOTESat a beach park place
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Post by lisa4 on Jun 17, 2010 11:00:44 GMT -5
Jake had to blink hearing words coming out of Kiran’s mind. So everyone could see that but not him. He was so blind but what can you expect of someone madly in love with someone else? And because Carina couldn’t stay away from him he couldn’t get over her when it was time for that already. He looked away from Kiran. She didn’t even look at him but on her feet. She had a lot of rights. Hell, she was right with everything but Jake didn’t want to admit to that. He was a big flirt all his life. He didn’t really care about girls’ feelings till he found out Carina has those for him. He thought she was the right one. He really did. He could do anything for her and stay with her to the end of his days. But they obviously weren’t to be. And when he managed to come back to his old lifestyle he had to hurt a girl he might care for soon. He regretted it right now, even more because she held it over his head.
"I’m sorry for living." he told her and looked at her just to see she was looking at him too. She was so pretty in his opinion. And her freckles gave more to her charm. It was so cute in his eyes. But of course he had to screw everything up again. OOC: what a crap of a post, i know x.x |
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Post by kiranbloom on Jun 18, 2010 8:41:35 GMT -5
The blond made her eye contact with him, and then pulled away slowly, her eyes going back to the shoreline, and the moon. It was beautiful, everyone admired it. Everyone wanted it. The moon was perfect, no matter if it was a new moon, or a full moon, it was always there. She wished she was the moon. Kiran blinked, wiping tears from her eyes, before anyone can see the glistening streak on her high cheekbones. Kiran pouted, looking back over to him, a non-remorseful look on her face. She didn’t want to send him into the spiral of downwards depression like she had found him in. That wasn’t her style. But she didn’t want to leave without making him regret her. The young adult just tilted her head. And kept the angered, confused look on her face. “Why?” She finally asked, after leaving him in silence. “Why did you do it? Was I not enough? Not good enough?” She turned away. She didn’t cry in front of boys. She would not cry in front of him. “You promised me I wasn’t just a pawn in a game, you remembered that you promised me that?”
She was stupid for believing him. That was the god honest truth here. As she looked back to the moon, which was starting to hide behind the cloud, as if it knew things were going to get ugly. Be Stong, She thought to herself. As she kept her eyes on the moon, she let her limp hanging tangled legs ground her from going too far forward and to far back.
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NOTESat a beach park place
TAGjake m. blackwell
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Post by lisa4 on Jun 20, 2010 8:17:30 GMT -5
As you know Jake’s life started to be one big misery. He could live with it but because of that he hurt people around him. He was in many relationships before but he loved only Carina Dolohov. What a shame she didn’t feel the same. Maybe deep in heart she did love him but she had never told him that. It could be hard for her and he couldn’t blame her. He just wanted her to be happy.
He really felt sorry for everyone he hurt. He wished he could have time-turner so he could make things go different way. He wished he could take spoken words back. But he had none, he had no way to make things up. Yet, he couldn’t bother himself so much with that all. He knew if he did he would simply get back to the state he was in, depression. Jake looked down at his shoes because he couldn’t stand Kiran look. She made him feel guilty. He didn’t mean to do that but people do stupid things out of impulse. "I don’t know okay?!" he started "I don’t like that but what can I do about it now?!" he sighed and looked at her. She looked as if she was about to cry. He walked closer to her and kneeled down before her looking up at her face. "Look, I’m sorry. People make mistakes, I made a few. It’s hard for me to stable. I wish I knew how to live to not hurt other people." he waited for her to say anything. He didn’t want her to forgive him or anything. He just wanted her to smile again. |
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Post by kiranbloom on Jun 22, 2010 10:05:15 GMT -5
The blond watched him come closer to her, her knuckles growing white as she gripped the chain metal swing handles. She didn’t want to hurt him, so she stopped the swings slight movement. Gripping the metal tightly, she made eye contact with him. Most promises made to her were broken. Motherhood was a promise made to a child, and that was broken, as was fatherhood, in a different way. Promises for plans, promises for love, She had to stop believing them. It was going to wind up killing her. She put so much into trying to find companionship, trying to find someone who understood her, Her mother bailed out early, Father was too busy, Jakob, her only close friend had enough to deal with. And then she Make Jake. Who seemed like he could be trusted, to not use her for a pretty face and her body, but, lo and behold, he did.
“Its not just what you did, It’s the principal of the action” she muttered. Starting to shake her head, she didn’t know what else to say to him. Jake didn’t deserve to be in her presence, and She didn’t want to deal with the torment. Taking a few steps back, her butt still on the swing, she planted her feet firmly on the ground, and slid off the rubber. The bare part of her legs burning from the friction. “You need to get your priorities in check, Going around, acting childish, self centered, isn’t going to work” ok, maybe that statement was more meant for herself. She finally pulled her eyes off of his, and looked back to her toes. Stay Confident, she told herself. The blond finally just walked over to the pole where her stuff was at, and just sat there. “We’re both human wrecks” she brought her knees up to her chest, and tried to hide her tears.
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NOTESat a beach park place
TAGjake m. blackwell
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Post by lisa4 on Jun 24, 2010 9:41:24 GMT -5
He hurt so many people lately. His sister, Therese making her think they had sex together. His ex-girlfriend, Carina Dolohov telling her he still loved her. His mother, Anna shouting at her for trying to find out what was wrong with him and help him. His little sister, Bailey who asked for attention but he had none for her, no time to play with her or anything. His ex-best friend giving into fight with him over Carina. And finally, the girl before him who just wanted his to be out of depression and offered herself as a treat. Jake hated himself for that all. If he had a time-turner, he would make thing go different way. He would take everything back.
Jake heard Kiran’s words. He had to blink at that. Not just what he did? How come? He blamed himself for hurting her deeply but she didn’t blame only him. He stood up as her feet touched the ground. He listened to what else she had to say and had to agree with her there. He watched her waking over to her stuff and sitting there. She had a lot of rights telling that he was a human wreck. But Jake couldn’t understand why she said they both were ones. He tilted his head wondering what was on her mind. He sighed and came up to her then plopped his butt in the sand next to her. He hesitated a bit before he put his arm around her and made her lean against his chest. "Please, just don’t cry now. I’m sorry again. I suck in keeping promises. And I know I can’t take it back. I know life’s a bitch but we have to live forward." he rubbed her arm gently. |
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Post by kiranbloom on Jun 30, 2010 7:20:26 GMT -5
Kiran sighed, wiping her eyes and looking at him. “I just wasn’t enough for you, I guess, “She said, letting him hold her close. Her dewy skin just glowed in the moonlight the streaks left by her tears glowed as well. She finger combed her hair, and sighed heavily. He was one of the lucky people, he had family, he had people who cared about him, he had friends. She didn’t have any of those things. She had herself, and her closet. That’s all she needed, until she met Jake.
Rubbing her eyes again, she took a deep breath, and looked to him. “I want to forgive you, I do, just, If I forgive you, everything goes back to how it was before. You acting like Carina’s leashed dog, me alone, and no one talking” she sighed. “I kind of like you too much not to talk to you ever again” she brought her shoulders up, giving a sigh, and releasing them back down. Her tear filled eyes looked up to him. Pursing her lips, she just wanted to hear something that would give her hope. Maybe they sprinted, instead of walked into this type of thing. She had no clue, but she knew it wasn’t only Jakes fault. She had to blame herself too for not measuring up.
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NOTESat a beach park place
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Post by lisa4 on Jul 5, 2010 4:23:39 GMT -5
Sometimes Jake didn’t show that but he cared for people. He was a good guy, he really was. But it was his Slytherin nature to play an asshole. Yet, sometimes he wanted to be one and it wasn’t faked. He just had fucked up mind. He was lost with everything. But he knew he had to live because he was needed. Yes, he meant a lot for many people, mostly women. He didn’t want to hurt them all that way. Kiran repeated that she wasn’t enough for him. He sighed again because he didn’t know if he should deny it or not. He was an ass to her. But looking at her face and tears he didn’t feel like leaving her alone that night. He was needed again and he was willing to do anything to at least try to comfort her, tell her she means something for him. It was just a bit hard for him. He put strand of her hair behind her ear to see her pretty face better.
Kiran rubbed her eyes again and looked at him. She spoke up again and Jake felt that nasty feeling in the stomach again. Was it guilt? Or maybe he was just sorry and felt like wiping off her problems? And then she said that she liked him, that she liked him too much to not talk to him ever again. Jake felt good with it. It brought a smile to his face. He wiped some tears away from her cheeks and kissed her on the cheek. "I like you too. I hate seeing you in sorrow. Cheer up, it will be better next day." Jake rubbed her back lightly and put her head to his shoulder and then hugged her. "We will change our crappy lives and be happy. I promise." |
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