Truth, lies, and abandonment (Trevent)

[petra]

Petra was tired of being in her room and being alone made her think. She thought about the last few weeks and what had happen which only makes her want to cry. She was angry, upset, and defeated. Brandon won and Trevent hated her. She couldn’t believe that the guy she thought will be there for her abounded her. He believed Brandon over her. She never lied to Trevent before and she never will. Sure she has secrets he doesn’t know about but everyone has secrets. She just missed him and being around him. She was miserable, tired, and alone. Her own brother believed Brandon over her. Her flesh and blood betrayed her and now she had one to relay on.

She couldn’t help but cry a little. She was just so tired for this. She wished she never had came to Hogwarts then she wouldn’t be in this mess. She always thought that Trevent was her knight in shiny armor but he wasn’t. There was no such thing as knights or love. It wasn’t meant for her and she will probably will be alone all her life.

She walked down the empty hallway. She wasn’t in the mood or appearance to talk to people. Her eyes where red from crying and she look horrible. Her hair was messy since she didn’t comb it at all that morning. She wore sweat pants, a green tank top, and a black sip-up jacket. She wasn’t really dress to be around people either.

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He languidly walked down the halls. He was glad that he had thought to bring his jacket. The cold stone of the castle was not the best of insulators from the winter cold. And in the damp dungeons, it was no different. Trevent was on his way to his favorite place in the whole of Hogwarts. Anyone that even knew briefly of the oldest le Fay son would know where he was headed. And he himself, thought that he deserved a reward. For once, he had finished all of his homework, before the due date. He was quite proud of his self. Hell, the entire castle should be proud of him. So, he headed down from the warm Gryffindor Tower through the dark, chilly dungeons to the warm, aromatic kitchens. He was smiling, in a great mood for the first time in what could be weeks. Granted, he hadn't been in a bad mood, or even all that down. It wasn't in his natural. But, today, he was in a jolly, grand mood. Maybe it was Rose that had kept him from being crushed over Petra. Regardless, he had barely had think over the past few weeks to think it over. And for that he was rather thankful. Today, he wasn't going to poke at it like a toothache either. That was not on his agenda. As Trevent rounded the corner, he whistled. Some random muggle song he had recently heard. It was quite catching that Owl City. Of course, he knew that all his music was rather out-dated. Any muggle-born could have told him that. But, he couldn't really get a hold of anything too recent. He gave a mental shrug. It didn't bother him, he liked that type of music. Much better than that Lady Gaga character. She kind of scared him. His eyes registered another being making it's way towards him before his mind did. He stepped to the right, automatically, getting out of the way. Then, he flinched. Petra was the being. He didn't know what to do, say, or anything. His mind shut down and he panicked.

"Eh, hey."

He was slightly startled by her appearance. She looked either sick or greatly upset. And if he had to wager a guess, it would have been upset. Petra wouldn't have left her room had she been sick. Trevent sincerely hoped that she wasn't upset due to him. It would just make the situation much much worse. Already, he wasn't certain how in the world to deal with it. Having told her before to get herself straight before talking to him again, he hadn't counted on randomly bumping into her. Certainly not like this either. It screamed awkward. He shifted from one foot to the other, nerves obvious. He had to buckle down, wasn't he a Gryffindor? Where was his courage? Gods above, this was definitely not on the agenda.

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Even if it means my being miserable
As long as she's loving life
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Words: 503
Target: Petra Connor
Outfit: here
Lyrics: Lindsey Quit Lollygagging, Chiodos
Note: sorry it took so long. =/ And I love Lady Gaga, ha.
Credits: Made by me, J Storm. Lyrics Chiodos[/center]

[petra]

She look up when she heard someone say hey. At first she just wanted to walk off and ignore the person but when she saw his face. She couldn’t say anything. She wanted to run away from him. He cause her to have so much pain in her heart. He made her question what love truly means. It was like she didn’t believe in love at all. It seems like a waste of time now and it didn’t seem worth.

But then way did she wanted to cry so badly. Why did her heart hurt so much when she sees him? She hated these feeling now and wanted them gone. She didn’t want to feel like her heart was ripe out of her chest anymore. She didn’t want to feel anymore. She already went through this pain during her parents so long ago.

She tried her hardest to put her smile on. It took a lot out of her to do. “Hi.” She said struggling with holding back her tears. She wanted to run far away from him and cry in her room. He ran to that Rose because he didn't believe her. It was basically what she was being blamed of. She wanted to shout at him and tell him what she felt. She wanted to have his arms around her again.

How many times has she cry over him becuase he broke her heart. She shouldn't be crying over him at all after he found someone else that he cared more for then her. "its nice to see you again, Trevent." This time she wasn't holding back her tears. Her eyes became cold and hard. She thought about Lisa advice. She had to admit that she's wrong to him. Like that was going to happen. He's just as guilty as her.

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So much for a relatively simple life. He was marooned in the mist of too much drama. Petra, Rose, Bella, family. At least his grades were looking up. He needed some guy friends. They would be drama free and then his father could stop joking that he was secretly a woofter. Though, his mother argued that all three would be acceptable future wives. That was all his mother thought about, he swore. Soon, she would be worrying Jay about it as well. At least for now, the boy was safe. Once, Trevent had thought he would marry the forlorn girl that had suddenly appeared before him. Once, now, he wasn't too sure. She wasn't the girl that he had thought she was. She was purely Slytherin and to top it off the adopted daughter of a man that his family knew to be the next Dread Lord. She had toyed with his emotions and then throw everything back into his face. Like he had been the one that betrayed her. Trevent still loved her, but he didn't know if it would be enough. He hadn't really allowed himself to dwell on her and his spot of trouble. Over the holidays, it had been more prudent for him to ignore it and focus on avoiding the activities his family had had. Now, he had to confront it. Petra Connor was standing in front of him. Trevent wished he had an invisibility cloak. Or had lingered for a while longer on that paper. His stomach rumbled embarrassingly and he had to ruefully smile at her. But the tears forming in her eyes wiped it from his face. Was he the cause of this? Gods above, he felt horrible now. No, he had to think about it this, logically. Which wasn't to say his best talents. Petra had put herself into this situation. But as her tone changed to one of icy harshness, he felt himself flinch. Oh boy, he hoped she didn't hex him. All those Slytherins knew nasty ones. Here goes nothing, he had to just buckled down and tell her what was on his mind.

"Eh, yeah. Have a good Christmas?"

Would it look to dumb to do a facepalm in the middle of the hallway? He had to be the least courageous of all the Gryffindors. A smear on the good house's name. He should have been sorted into Hufflepuff. At least, they were allowed to be timid and shy, and come to think of it, he had a lot of those traits that were deemed Hufflepuff. It wasn't a bad house, just not a very historically laced one like Gryffindor or Slytherin. Maybe, he could have a word with the Sorting Hat and get moved to Hufflepuff. Trevent knew his mind was wandering in effect to make this a less intense encounter. And for some reason, it irked him. Why couldn't he just stand up and fight out his problems? It would make life less difficult in the long run.

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Even if it means my being miserable
As long as she's loving life
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Words: 511
Target: Petra Connor
Outfit: here
Lyrics: Lindsey Quit Lollygagging, Chiodos
Note: ahhhh, =]
Credits: Made by me, J Storm. Lyrics Chiodos[/center]

[petra]

Petra moved some hair that fell in front of her eyes. She saw Trevent flinch and knew that he notice the coldness in her voice. It was funny how other houses thought that Slytherin will hex others just for fun. She was still Petra who had morals. “god, Trevent are you honestly afraid that I might put a hex on you just because am a Slytherin.” She laugh bitterly. She was tired of his hypocrisy. “You of all people should know I won’t hurt anyone let alone you.” She said. “I’m still the same girl you knew since I first came her. But are you still the same guy I knew?” She ask him. “but I could have been wrong about you all this time.” She said harshly.

“and here I thought that you will also trust me and believe me but you didn’t. You're just like Brandon but worst. Brandon didn’t break my heart or made me question everything that I thought I figure out.” She didn’t really want to admit to Trevent that he really did break her heart but it just came out. She couldn’t take it back though which suck because she just appeared weak and stupid for ever feeling what she felt for him. “and I never lied to you once. I never played with your feeling because that would have meant I was playing with my feelings and you of all people know am not stupid enough to do that.” She said crossing her arms across her chest. “but yet again you think that I’m evil Slytherin who would do something like that. So you not really sure who I am, right? ” She said shrugging her shoulders.

“and just because I belong to a family thats like yours doesn’t mean I will turn out to be like them. And who the hell you think you are to think that I will turn out to be like one of them. You didn’t so why must I?” She ask Trevent cruelly. “Oh wait I know why because am a Slytherin." She said. "but you of all people know that I don’t belong in that house just like how I know you don’t belong in Gryffindor. “ She knew that probably cross the line with that little statement but it was true. He was to shy to be a Gryffindor just like how she was to nice to be a Slytherin.

She was being cruel and rude but a girl can only take so much. "and you know whats really stupid on my part? I still love you even though your in love with that Rose girl now. Stupid right"

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Bite my tongue, right now the perfect time
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Her words stabbed him to the core and he could almost physically feel the knife wounds. He stood stunned and tried to figure out what went wrong. The echos of her verbal assault bounced around and pushed all other thoughts from his head. There would be no peace treaty, no easy way out. Petra was fighting with teeth and nails and Trevent was taken completely aback. Surely, she didn't really feel the way she was suggesting. Or believe the words that she was spewing. Trevent hadn't changed, or at least he didn't think so. It wasn't like he was suddenly telling his best friend that he loved her and that his past relationship had basically been a lie. No, he had always been upfront and honest with her. And she had taken advantage of his one weakness. Her. He could feel his self shaking with anger and frustration. This had not been his fault, and he was still confused about how he felt about her and everything that was going on. She was not going to lay all the blame at his feet. He refused to lay back and take it this time. And of course he was better than that snub Nott! Trevent hadn't once picked a fight with the boy or done anything like Nott was known to do. He had never treated Petra the way Nott did. He had never hurt her that way. He was a million times better than Brandon Nott. She was just too young and refusing to see it. And the more venom she spewed the more anger he became to draw on. Trevent was not the kind of guy to jump into emotions. No he was a laidbackish, easy-going guy. But in this case, he was slowly getting mad. More than just mad, enraged. He was not the one at fault her. And she would have to deal with it.

He opened his mouth, intend on launching his counter-attack when she hit his weak spot. His House. Petra and Rose and Jay and Bella and his other friends were dear to his heart. He was loyal to the core and would do anything for them, in a heartbeat. But, Trevent had one personal weak spot. And Petra was poking at it. He deflated. She was right. He couldn't stand up for himself even. He sighed. Why did life have to be so complicated? He just nodded, intending on walking away. Just like he always did when confronted with problems he didn't understand how to solve. Halfway through his turn, she let off the bomb. He whirled, anger returning. Stupid, yeah he would have to agree with that.

"Yes, that is extremely stupid. For you to say. Because you are so blind to the world. You honestly have no idea what love is do you?" He looked at her, eye filled with scorn now. "Of course not. 'Oh, look at me I'm poor sweet Petra Connor.' Well grow up! The world is not always the way you want it to be. Okay? Yes, I love Rose, but I'm surely not in love with her. She was my best friend when I was young. I can't not be her friend now. She's still my best friend. Especially because the one I had, well. Let's just stop there."

He was done, he was hungry and now he was pissed. She was being young and stupid. And to be honest, Trevent didn't want any part of it. He was a gentlemen, and polite. So, he waited for her to get the message to move. His stomach just hoped it didn't take too long.

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Even if it means my being miserable
As long as she's loving life
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Words: 629
Target: Petra Connor
Outfit: here
Lyrics: First Love, Utada Hikaru
Note: All done.
Credits: Made by me, J Storm. Lyrics Chiodos[/center]

[petra]

“I’m not blind to the world, Trevent. I’ve see thing that you would never want to see. I seen my parents get killed right in front of me and they blood was all over me. So don’t tell me that I need to grow because I’m more mature then you.” Petra said looking him straight in the eyes. After that night she found out how the world really worked.”And I know that. I learn that when I was 11.” She shouted. She was slowly breaking. “I know the world doesn’t work like I want to because if it did I would still have my parents with me and at least you would smile for me again.” She said crying. “I wish I didn’t. I didn’t want to grow up on my 11th birthday. I just wanted to be an eleven year old who just got her first wand.” She said wiping her tears and looked somewhere else.


She couldn’t take it anymore. Last night she started to have her nightmares again and every night she had to relive her parent’s death. She wanted to forget about everything for just one night. She couldn’t even eat because she always felt like throwing up. She couldn’t do any of this anymore since she was too weak. She slowly fell to the floor. She place her hands on the floor and she saw her tears fell on the cold floor. Her world was falling apart but that was her fault. She didn’t know anything anymore. She felt stupid, helpless and she hated those feeling worse of all.


“You right. I don’t know what love is. How could I.” She was defeated. She didn’t understand any of this. She just wanted to go home. She just wanted to have her real mom to hold her and tell her everything was going to be okay. She couldn’t fight anymore. She was broken and alone. She thought love was when your with that special someone you will feel safe. She didn’t feel that anymore but she wanted too. She still loved Trevent but how can he ever love her back. She caused him so much trouble that she wouldn’t even forgive herself.


“Everything is my fault. I didn’t mean to place blame on you. I shouldn’t have gone to you after I broke up with Brandon. I thought I was in love with you and not him but I should have waited. I didn’t want you to end up hating me.” She said putting her hands to her face and crying. “I never wanted you to feel like I mess with your feeling.” She lowered her head since she didn’t want Trevent to look at her. “I don’t know what to do anymore.” She whispered. She didn’t want Trevent to feel sorry for her because in the end she brought this on herself. She couldn’t be strong anymore. She couldn’t pretend to be someone she was not either. She was pathetic, weak and she wanted to disappear. “I’m so sorry. I didn’t mean for all of this to happen like this.” She whispered again.

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He didn't intend for her to collapse on herself. For his words to really hit home. For her to fall to the floor in tears. But, now, before his very eyes to the girl he had loved more than his very breathe, was falling to pieces on the cold stone floors of the dungeon hallway. He wanted to slowly kill his self. It would be less painful than this ever would be. His words had hurt her, in ways that he had never intended. Trevent instantly regretted his words, his anger, his scorn laced arrows. At first, he thought she was just launching her next attack on him, and he had sighed as his stomach rumbled. Instead he had been forced to watch as she broke and fell to the ground. His heart felt as if it was shattering with the sight before him. Every tear that leaked from her eyes was a ragged tear into his very core. He was frozen in his pain, in his agony over the sight of what he had caused. How anyone could ever get a sick pleasure over making people feel like this was beyond his mind's grasp. Her whispered words reached his ear and he had to move. He had to wrap her into his arms and heal her pain. Trevent stepped towards her, no thoughts in his head but to make this better. Kneeling in front of her in the quiet tomb like hallway, he reached for her hands.

"Shh, Petra, shh! Don't cry. Please don't cry. You know that I can't stand when you cry. It hurts me too much. I didn't mean what I said, well, that's a lie. But, I didn't mean to say it like that. The last thing I would want to do is hurt you, ever. You mean everything to me. You're my best friend." He shuddered and pulled her into his arms. His own eyes were filling up with moisture. Trevent didn't want her to see him being any weaker than he already was. "You know that I still love you. Regardless, of everything."

Sure everything was going down hill and his life was full of craziness. But Petra was still his everything. Even with everything that had happened. He couldn't stand to be without her and it had been sure misery with them at odds. Trevent decided right then and there that he would try his hardest to fix it. If she would let him. If only she would let him.

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Even if it means my being miserable
As long as she's loving life
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Words: 438
Target: Petra Connor
Outfit: here
Lyrics: Hurricane, 30 Seconds To Mars
Note: Happy New Years!
Credits: Made by me, J Storm. Lyrics Chiodos[/center]

[petra]

Petra didn’t look up when she felt his hands on hers. She didn’t want him to see her broken and scared. She was scared that he would have leaved her and never look back. She couldn’t even forgive herself and he was forgiving her. He was too nice and she was slowly becoming a Slytherin. She wanted to be one and she wanted to be part of the DE. If she did decided to go against the DE she would be killed. She knew too much to be spared even if she was dearly loved by Jack. She couldn’t tell Trevent any of this because then she would be putting his life at risk. She still need to decided but she wouldn’t say anything to anyone about this until she had decided what side she will choose.

She put her arms around his neck when he pull her into her arms and put her head on his shoulder and cried a little more. She couldn’t stop crying. She was just revealed that he wasn’t abounding her like how everyone in her life end up doing. “You didn’t hurt me that much, just a little but I deserver most of it.” She said wiping some of her tears. “Well I think I deserver a lot more then what you said to me. “ She said pulling away from him. “I don’t think I deserver to be love even by you.” She said pull her knees up to her chest and hug herself.


(sorry about the shortness)

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His arms around the girl that he loved, and all he could think of was how terribly wrong this was. He was doing something that wasn't right and it wasn't going to lead them anywhere productive. But he couldn't fight against his own heart. And regardless of where his future was leading him, his heart was here. The sobbing girl that had her arms wrapped around his neck held it tighter than he had. He shook slightly, fighting the urge to cry as well. Things were slowly going to hell and he didn't know where the emergency brake was. Nifty if life really came with one of those. The thought helped him to fight the frustrated tears. He was never one to hold on to pointless emotions and this was one of them.

Trevent didn't quite have a smile on his face as he felt her relax, but her words and movement wiped the beginnings of one away. As easily as one might bat a fly, she had changed his thoughts. He hadn't hurt her that much with his words. They had been a rush of emotions surging forward. He was trying to push her away with them. Instead, she had brought his world in clear prospective, and he had crumbled when she did. But she was right. He just didn't know how to tell her. Petra was both right and completely, utterly wrong. She did deserve more than he had rashly spoken, the truth. And he, like the coward he was, was hiding. Hiding it from everyone and refusing to admit it to himself even. Rose didn't even know. He felt him self go cold and he looked away from her. His toleration for her pain was far too low. She sat just slightly away with her knees pulled to her chest. It was a position that screamed for him to fix her worries. But he couldn't. He was one of them, a cause. Oh, hatred was becoming his best friend or rather bosom companion.

"No, you're right and horribly wrong." He drew his self back, standing. "You do deserve more than what I said. And you deserve more than my love. Better than me, Petra. You are so pure, kind-hearted, and innocent. Sure, you have a bite. But that's what makes you a Slytherin and a woman. You have the ability to protect yourself. And you just deserve someone so much more than me."

A dry laugh followed his short monologue. He wasn't even man enough now to explain his words. But, he couldn't leave her either. So he just paced back and forth. His internal struggle leaving him no peace and no sure exit. He was out of his league and hating every second of it. Things had been so much easier before Christmas. Hell, before winter. Man, this year was starting to suck. At least his birthday was next month, coming of age had to weigh all this out. But some how, he thought it would fall drastically short.

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You can never know
All that I would do to keep it so
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Words: 517
Target: Petra Connor
Outfit: here
Lyrics: Over, Sugarcult
Note: A new twist
Credits: Made by me, J Storm. [/center]

[petra]

Petra didn’t understand what he was saying. Why was he doing this to her? She loved him so much but he’s telling her she need some better then him. Was he trying to push her away? She wanted him and that’s all. Sure she told him that she didn’t deserve his love but she wanted it. She stood up. “Don’t you get Trevent?” She was more then annoyed. She was frustrated with his words. She didn’t want anyone but him. She walked towards him and put her hand to his cheek. “I don’t want to fall in love with someone else. I just want to be with you.”

She somehow felt that wasn’t going to happen. She felt that something was coming and it would ruin everything. “Please Trevent. Just stay with me and be with me.” She felt like he was slowly being pulled from her and she couldn’t do anything to change it. She wouldn’t be able to handle if he was taking away from her. “I love you.” She put her hand in his and smiled. “I fell in love with you because when you hold me I felt safe.” She felt tears come to her eyes. "So please stay with me."

Still she didn't understand why he was telling her these things about she deserve someone else. “If you’re pushing me away because you don’t love me anymore. Just tell me.” She said with tears falling down her cheek. “but if you still love me. Why are you pushing me away?” She wouldn’t be able to handle him abounding her. He knew her worse fear and that was abandonment.

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Bite my tongue, right now the perfect time
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He held his ground, even though it burned him. He listened and felt his heart crack and knew it wasn't the end yet. Soon, both of their hearts would be lining the unforgiving stone floor in glittering chips. He should be here, touching her and allowing her to touch him. But it felt so good and he longed to just run away with her and only her. Sadly, he pushed her hand away from his cheek. He was already in too deep. It would be for best if he just cut her loose. Why was he clinging to her? Because he loved her. And once again he had to step back, away from her hand and her smile. Another fission stabbed his mangled heart as he noticed the tears forming. He shuddered. He could not stay, could not hold her and should not love her. But how do you explain that to your heart? Trevent turned his back to her. It was a selfish need to spare himself the look in her eyes.

"I love you, Petra. I do. But, I can't be with you. I can't touch you. I shouldn't even be alone with you anymore. I might not agree with my family's beliefs all the time. But, I can't soil their name anymore, I can't betray them again." I don't have a choice, words left unspoken. He mastered his voice and emotions, and turned towards. "It doesn't have to be the end. We can still love each other but, nothing more. I need you to be my best friend again. How we were before everything got complicated and thrown to the wind. Can you do that for me? Can you try?"

A prouder man would have not begged. But it was there in his voice and eyes. Trevent was begging Petra to understand. Merlin was she young, but so was he. A year is nothing when you have seen what she had, experienced what she knew. And things were different. Petra was Jack's daughter, and as such, he was unsure where her loyalties laid. When Ana and he were married, he knew his future family would not be broken by the coming war. There was no way a pureblood wife, pruned from birth to be so, would go against her husband. Even if Ana had spirit. Trevent didn't know how Petra would chose and it would be easier to cut now and learn to love his bride. He was sure he could.

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Even if it means my being miserable
As long as she's loving life
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Words: 425
Target: Petra =]
Outfit: here
Lyrics: Whataya Want From Me?, Adam Lambert
Note: I love not being in school anymore.
Credits: Made by me, J Storm. Lyrics Chiodos[/center]

[petra]

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Petra couldn’t believe what he was saying. She looked up at the ceiling while tears fell. She was trying to come to terms to what he was saying but she didn’t understand and if she did, she didn’t want to.

"I love you, Petra. I do. But, I can't be with you. I can't touch you. I shouldn't even be alone with you anymore.
"Love me." She laugh in disbelief. "Do you hear want your saying because to me it doesn't sound like love it sound like something else." She was frustrated with herself for every feeling something for him. She was glad he wasn’t looking at her because her eyes were fell with hatred and angrier. “I can’t believe I let myself to believe anything you told me.” She was wanted to run and go as far away from him as she could. She didn’t want to be near him.

I might not agree with my family's beliefs all the time. But, I can't soil their name anymore, I can't betray them again."
“Betray your parents? You betray me.” She said. “I can’t believe I trusted you, let alone let myself trust someone again.” She knew she was being cruel yet again but this was enough. She was done with his games. “You say you love me but you don’t. If you did you would have had the courage to stand up to your parents, Trevent.” She said. “and if you really did, its not as strong as you think it is because I would have at least fight for you.” She wiped her tears. “but I’m done fighting for someone who’s not willing enough to fight for me.” She was really done. She couldn’t take it anymore and she wouldn’t. She handed him her heart and it was broken into million of pieces.

"It doesn't have to be the end. We can still love each other but, nothing more. I need you to be my best friend again. How we were before everything got complicated and thrown to the wind. Can you do that for me? Can you try?"
“Now you’re just being selfish.” She said clenching her fist. She couldn’t believe he had the nerve to ask her that. “You’re so cruel.” She said harshly. “I don’t want to see you with another girl.” She ignored his begging. “You just want me to forget and make your life easier for you.” She said. “You’re not even thinking about my feelings at all. You don’t even think what you’re doing to me right now, do you?” She looked up at him but her eyes were cold and hard. “How would you like it if you see me hanging around Lucas or Keaton? If you still love me it will hurt to see me flirting with other guys, wouldn’t it. So at least spare me from seeing someone I truly love with someone else. If you really do care for me… fight for me or let me go.” She struggle with the last word because she felt that he wouldn’t fight for her and she didn’t want him to let her go.

“and be honest with me, Trevent, who’s the other girl ?” She had a feeling that everything that was happening was cause by someone or some girl. She just needed to know the truth and what was the caused of her misery.

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Oh how he wanted to hate her, hate her and rid himself of her poison. Because that's what her words were. Poison, venom, curses. They burnt him and stung him and sent him more and more into a fit of rage. Was she trying to make him mad? Or was she just being a stupid girl. Gods above, Ana had taken this so much better. Though, to be honest, him and Ana weren't really that official yet. He hadn't been able to get the nerve up with him and Petra still in the loop of things they were in. At least he knew after this that they would be done. This nasty row right smack in the middle of the highway, where just anyone could walk up to them. Mab, if these got back to his parents.

He wanted to stuff something down her throat. She needed to shut up. She had no idea what she was foaming at the mouth about. Did all she ever see was herself and how the world affected her? He had known her for years. And never once remembered her acting like this. He wasn't betraying her and he did love her. But how does one fight against something set down before one was even one? They can't. Especially not with the magic of his blood helping the pledge. He had argued with his parents over it. But they would not listen and he was set to marry Ana Nott in August 2024. Trevent could not find a way out of it and he had mind as embrace it. The pros out weighed the cons, even considering the lose of his current love. He was sure he could find a way to love Ana. But for now, he had to find a way to end his love for Petra. And she apparently was going to go kicking and screaming.

He did not feel like he was being selfish. If he was being selfish, he would have just kept her and Ana. He would not be letting Petra going. He would not have hide it for so long. From his point of view, Trevent had decided he was doing the correct thing. Neither of them, Petra or him, wanted to end it and say goodbye. So what was wrong with being friends. Everything, according to her. He fought to yell back at her, biting his tongue until she was done. His hands in tight balls, fingernails drawing blood from his palms. Finally, she stopped speaking, ending with a bitter question. And he turned to face her. Eye to eye, both shot with emotions and too young to be doing what they were. His voice was thin, but unwavering, and slightly sarcastic.

"First of all, I do love you. I always have. You know this, if you would just stop and think. I did not betray you. There was no fighting against this. And I did fight, all Christmas, believe it or not. But, you can't fight something that was decided for you before you could even talk, thank you. Also, I was not being cruel, I was seeking a way to give us both what we wanted. And before you forget, I have seen you with other people and was still your best friend. Or did you oh so nicely forget that? I have suffered for you. And, you know what? I think I'm done as well." He reached into his pocket, and pulled out the box. He looked almost broken as he looked at it and then back at her. Then he throw it at her feet."It wasn't my choice. But yes, there is another girl. It's not going to be a walk through the daisies for me marrying her. That's for Ana Nott."

He knew that all hell would be breaking out. That she knew what the box held. And he didn't know why he did it. Except, he felt the best way for both of them would be if he just broke them both so much that neither would be able to heal it back. Here's to hoping he had achieved it.

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Petra didn’t even snap back at Trevent words. She just looked at the box that held the ring that he was going to give Ana. Ana had been her friends since she first came here and she didn’t even tell her that she was going to marry Trevent. She felt her knees buckle and she feel to the floor for the second time that hour. She didn’t even touch the box. She didn’t want to look at him. Her heart was hurt too much. “You should have at least told me this before I fell in love with you. It would have save me time and my heart from you.” She thought that once again she would have the relationship back with Trevent but now that won’t happen, never.

Though she didn’t have to worry about betraying her family any more. She was free from feeling guilty about joining the DE now. “Well Trevent. I guess were going to see each other on the other side of the battle field.” She stood up and fixed herself. She walked closer to him and stop in front of him. “Don’t worry. You breaking up with me isn’t the thing that cause me to join. And you’re right about me being a slytherin but to tell you the truth I’m not ashamed of any of it though there was a time when I would but not anymore. I love being a Slytherin and holding up to what we are best known for. Though you hate DE and who Slytherins are and though I wish you wouldn’t hate me. But the sorting hat saw that I was a true slytherin and I’m glad it did.” She said giving him one last kiss on the lips. She will miss him but one day she would had to say goodbye to him and she guess it was better this way. “I love you but I will try to get over it and when I’m able to look at you with out feeling like my heart is breaking into million of pieces. I will be a friend again.” She putting her hand to his cheek and letting her hand fall to her side.

“If you get tired of Ana you know where to find me.” She said winking and walking off. “oh and believe me when I tell you this, Trevent. When we battle each other one day and that day will come. I don’t know who I’m going to be and trust me it will. I’ll be more powerful then today so at least try not to fight me because I really don’t want to kill my best friend.” She said turning her head and stop.

One day when she’s older and everything is turning out like now Bellatrix wanted. She will be on the DE side of the battle field though it was her choice and she was glad that she made that choice. She should at least hear his thoughts on this though he will never tell anyone any of this because he didn’t want to disgrace his parents. She was the daughter of the Dark Prince and the granddaughter of the Dark Lady. His family was loyal to the DE.


notes: petra is finally telling Trevent about her being a DE member.