Home is, well home [Lily]

[lydia]

Yes she had sided with the enemy and done things she really shouldn't have done. Things that were probably going to haunt her for life, if she lived. She had to grow up fast. She needed to become somewhat responsible if she was to have a baby. Was wasn't the right word. When would be better. She knew that James had said it was an opening for new options. A baby she can guide instead of searching for someone to guide her. She'd never have the guts for an abortion, even if she had become some cruel cold hearted death eater. It was her own, and Axels of course. And Chris said he wanted a part in her life, she was sure he wouldn't go running before she would.


It was an achievement to put down the wand, there wasn't words to explain how it felt. She knew she should have confided the first day this all kicked of. Spilled it all out, but then she wouldn't know how much of a psycopath Jack could be. That was probably the next step. Telling them all she knew, because she infact knew everything. Every single detail of how the death eaters were planning it out. She could be the advantage if she played her cards right.

Before she knew it she was being pulled into a hug, it had helped when james had done the same but it was better when her dad did instead. maybe she'd pushed things that far they all tied back together even closer. Thats when it crossed her mind. Al and James would still be at hogwarts if he pulled her out, and she knew exactly what would happen if she disappeared into thin air. "No i dont want to leave hogwarts" she began. "Its not long till summer, and i'll get early leave anyway considering. Bellatrix doesn't know yet, i can carry on until she clicks on." no she wouldn't leave hogwarts. Chris was there, her life was there, and she knew bellatrix would figure out faster considering the head master was a death eater too.

[harrypotter]

Relief has swept over Harry's body in an instant. His scar now had stopped prickling and the churning of his stomach had finally ceased. Was he over it all? No of course not. But for now, he would have to push it all aside and be thankful that she had caved in. He knew then she wasn't cold hearted like Bellatrix probably had thought. Everyone could be cold, but it took pure evil to stay that way. He knew she would probably be plagued the rest of her life with the thoughts of those she had killed, and the events she had taken place in. He thought that was punishment enough. The baby though was another story. He still didn't know quite how he was going to handle that one. Maybe it would be best for him, James, and Albus to take up the Death Eater situation, and let Ginny and Roula take care of the baby situation. He didn't think he would be exceptionally well at handling another newborn at this moment in time.

Plans were already forming into his head. First thing was to call the Order back. He figured most of them had been alerted by the sightings of the Death Eaters already, but were awaiting his word to actually step into action. Next on his list was to go to the Ministry and tell Hermonie, maybe with them on his side for once things could go smoother. Then he realized he had something better sitting right in front of him. Someone who had been there since the beginning, already knew what was going on. He couldn't ask her to tell him anything yet, that would definitely put her in danger. If Bellatrix was taking up like her old master, that meant that she was keeping dibs on every single person in her army, including Lily especially. He wondered if she had already hexed her name to track those who said it, but since no one showed up, he figured they hadn't.

His thoughts returned as she spoke, telling him to let her stay at Hogwarts. "Sweetie, I just can't afford to stakeout at the Hog's Head while your there, now that all this is finally falling into place." he said. But then he thought about it. Maybe it would be better for her to go back. Then she would be decently safe. He was going to have to pull the records on all the staff though now, and that would take long enough to figure out a decent plan before Bellatrix did catch on. Though he hated it, he finally caved in. "Okay, you can go back." he said. "But I must ask you stay tonight and tell me whats been going on. i know it's soon and if you can't tell me everything just yet that's fine. I just need to get a head start on this now so I can catch up." He smiled at her before hugging her again. He finally stood up, letting her go as he tried to locate his glasses. "If anyone asks where you've been," he started to say, as he got on his hands and knees, trying to find the shards of glass in the blood stained carpet. "You came to visit you're mother about you pregnancy." The words made his stomach churn a bit.

[lydia]

Lily was sure she'd payed her price ten times over. She'd been into plenty of fights, and practically hit rock bottom. All she was waiting for was depression to strike and that would be her life layed out. She was surprised she had coped up to this point. She'd spent plenty of situations using her mouth that got her into trouble, to get her back out, and her wand when she needed it. Her attitude was sometimes the replica of her mothers. Doing what she needed to do, and that was what being a death eater was pretty much all about. She was sure she was going to hell, there was probably no doubt about that but she was determined to put that of for a little while longer. She at least wanted to see who would win the next wizardry war. That would be a interesting thought. If bellatrix didn't try to kill her before hand, or dominique for that matter.

Lily had been through it all and then dragged back through. Now she knew everything was getting started up. No doubt the order would be back, and the family would know exactly what lily had done. She knew it would be a fifty fifty on how everyone would react. Plus their opinions on what they would do about it. She'd probably end up being untrustworthy or something. At least for now she still had the trust of none of than the dark lady herself. For now that meant she could continue on playing loyal lily if need be.Would the ministry get involved? Most likely yes, Aunt hermoine was the minister after all. This wasn't going down well, and lily reminded herself, that this, all of this was far from over. It was only getting started.

She shook her head. Last thing she needed was her dad spying her every move. She felt like she was being watched all the time anyway. "No need, i have James and Chris, I know they will help me out. " she said. "I dont want to pull attention to myself, they dont even think i speak to you or mum anymore". She paused hoping he would cave in like she had, and he did. "Ok, ill stay the night" she couldn't be bothered to make her way back into the cold back off to hogwarts anyway.

[harrypotter]

He should have known his kids lives would probably be harder than his ever was. He had expected it really, just not so soon. All Harry had to do when he was her age was figure out a way to stop Voldemort, she on the other hand was plagued by another Potter on the way, Bellatrix trying to kill her, and trying to remain a part of this family. He hoped she wanted to remain a part of this family. It would kill him really if she didn't, making his insides finally split in two. That would really cause the family to split. He knew if she really left and forgot about them Ginny would be on his ass constantly, James would hate him, Albus and Roula would at first be on his side, but he'd probably slip up with them too and they'd fall into place with their mother.

His thoughts snapped back into place though as she spoke again, and he nodded. That was good, no attention, that's what she really needed right now. Then she said she'd stay tonight and another way of relief swept over him, prickling his scar and his skin. He gave her another nod, kinda unable to speak, his glasses to smashed and broken to really be found. He found the rims, but none of the glass, which now his thoughts returned tot he bleeding foot, thinking the shards were probably stuck in there somewhere. No matter now though. He got to his feet again , tossing his glasses off and into a wooden rocking chair by the fireplace.

He sighed, then turned to face his daughter who was still on the floor. "So, when did this all start exactly? Who was involved? Who said what?" he asked, now his auror side kicking in. He needed to know all he could if he was going to help her. Maybe it would be easier this time, having someone on the inside, unlike Snape who in the end proved his worth, but made things extremely difficult. No, he couldn't play his daughter like that, not like some cheap card in a set of poker. He made his way to the couch which sat beside his chair, sitting down, hunched over. He clasped his hands together, his face still red, but the color returning to normal as he awaited her answers.

[lydia]

Trying to multitask with a slowly falling life was never the best way to be. She couldn't be who she had been, but if it wasn't for the baby she doubted she would have ever stopped. Maybe considered it, but never stopped. Baby came first now, not Lily. Thats how she looked at it, she always thought her father would have had the worst life. he lost him parents and he too had the psycotic lord voldemort after him. Lily was sure she just got the woman version of pure madness and evil. She'd almost gone down that route too. As for remaining part of the Potter family she wasn't so sure. It depended on the rest of the extended family. What they all thought of her discounting dom of course. She had started her own family. That came first.

Her mother was going to flip she was sure. Perhaps worse than harry did. Even though Lily and Ginny are so alike, it caused fueled up arguments between the two when they finally got fed up of each other.She knew she was going to have to speak up. She couldn't lead her father in circles, and she couldn't refuse to speak what needed to be known. So what if she might leave a few tiny little things out. Of course she thought about lying, making it up and leading him off into the wrong direction, but that was just the old lily trying to break in again. She shifted on the floor to a more comfortable position.

She knew it would be the case of who, what and where and when to start it off. Her father was the head auror after all. She thought about it. "End of the summer" she spoke rather quietly but in a thoughtful way. "It was me, Jack Lestrange and some people in the three broomsticks. I sat down next to him, it was the first time i had ever met him in think. Before i even had chance to pull out my wand, he binded me and killed the whitnessess of the pub." She paused, she couldn't remember the last time she had brought that memory up. "Then he took me to his house. Told me it was for the better i found out this way. He said you... and the ministry were corrupted. That his father and mother worked to help the wizardry world and you all got power hungry" she paused wondering how she had managed to fall for it, "He said he needed my help, and i agreed. Then he brought some muggle woman in, and taught me the unforgivables. That was when i first murdered someone. And then after that it all just escalated."

[harrypotter]

Harry watched as his daughter shifted her seating, thinking to himself as he did. He was on a personal manhunt now for Bellatrix, not only for his godfathers death, but also for the corruption of his daughter. He wondered if she only quit because of the baby. Maybe she couldn't bare the fact that the kid could end up like Harry himself, his/her parent's dead and a new Dark Lord after them. Yeah, some why to usher a new baby into the family. His thoughts though returned to her, as she finally spoke up, answering his questions.

"End of the summer. It was me, Jack Lestrange and some people in the three broomsticks. I sat down next to him, it was the first time i had ever met him in think. Before i even had chance to pull out my wand, he binded me and killed the whitnessess of the pub." She had paused for a moment, and Harry took the first part in. Jack Lestrange. As in Defense teacher at Hogwarts? But, his record was clean when he had doubled check for Hermonie that summer when he was starting at the school. He knew he bore the last name that was tied to Bellatrix, but he didn't think anything much about him at the time. They all thought she was dead, and he was just an almost dies off branch of the tree.


She spoke again. "Then he took me to his house. Told me it was for the better i found out this way. He said you... and the ministry were corrupted. That his father and mother worked to help the wizardry world and you all got power hungry" she paused wondering how she had managed to fall for it, "He said he needed my help, and i agreed. Then he brought some muggle woman in, and taught me the unforgivables. That was when i first murdered someone. And then after that it all just escalated."

It all made him rather sick, and rather spiteful too. He knew who his target was now. It was just a matter of getting the Order back together now and alerting the Ministry. He took a deep breath, then spoke. "I am very disappointed in you for believing something as silly as that!" He looked at her, his eyes rather cold, though he couldn't help it, he needed to go off. "You know that your Aunt Hermonie is the Ministress now. After all we went through in the second war, how could you think that Me, Her, and your Uncle Ron were all power hungry?!?" He stood up now and was pacing around the room. Upset? Yes, but it was all building up now inside him, all the problems now mixing together. "I can't believe you didn't trust me..." he said, now standing behind her and looking out the living room window unto the fading sunset. "You still don't..." It hit him like ice, his insides now cold. There would be no sleeping tonight.

[lydia]

[Yes it was stupid to fall for something so simply, but jack had made it believable. Somehow he had gotten Lily to give him her complete utter trust. He treated her like one of his own, all the way up to her slipping up and the drama with dom began. Jack wasn't on anyones side, Lily was sure of it. But the second Jack turned on her that was it, she'd zoomed of to the next safest group and that just happened to be when Bellatrix took her under the wing. Putting her straight and giving her the task of killing dom to concentrate on. That was what set Lily off, and she was merely greatful that she had begun to learn the lessons that needed too. Maybe she was like Snape in a way. He took the hard route of life too, and they'd both made their own mistakes.

He spoke, and she listened. "You don't know jack" she complained. "He's very... convincing so to speak." and an utter psycopath and i would recommed steering clear from him father she wanted to add but didn't. Maybe she should have, Jack's mind games were what sent her off the U bend. She hated people being disappointed in her, especially her own parent. It gave her that down feeling, and it was all triple boosted due to hormones. He didn't get it, and she doubted he ever would. Jack had ways around people, and Lily knew she had picked up on that.

"Oh i don't know, maybe because im not some great fucking potter im expected to be? I messed up. I admit that but i wasn't exactly around for the second war now was i? What do you expect? " she snapped to him but forced herself to calm down. She hated it when people questioned her motives. What happened happened, she couldn't change it. And then it hit him. He knew she didn't trust him. She didn't trust anyone let alone him. She gave a short glance to her wand, ensuring it was within reach. Just in case, and she sighed. "I don't trust anyone. I learned i can't." she began. "Jack played mind games, he tortured me, almost killed me a few times too. After that, that was it. There is no trust, and loves a myth,."

[harrypotter]

Harry heard her snap and that was the last straw for him. He turned around and snapped back coldly. "I expected better of you..." He meant it. For once in his life he actually meant something he said out of anger. He had expected a whole lot better out of her. How could she be so stupid and arrogant! Oh yeah, Harry James Potter, the king of those two things was her father. He hated himself now, feeling like failure on the brink of destruction. He heard her speak of Jack once again, telling him that there was no such thing as trust and love, and he looked down at her. "Now we all know that's bullshit, or that baby wouldn't be there now!" His voice was harsh and at the point of yelling.

Turning around he looked back out the window. He needed to blow steam, needed to do it badly. All he wanted to do was choke the living crap out of Bellatrix. How could he have let her slip through the crack and gather strength after all these years. How come he had let Jack do the same and kidnap his daughter, teaching her how to use the unforgivables?

He now started to walk towards the entranceway for the living room, not bothering to look back at his daughter that was still sitting on the floor. He was too upset to look her way at that moment. All he could think about was how he wanted to kill the two bastards that caused this to his lovely daughter, turning her into some mindless being that she was now. He walked out of the living room and through the house to the back door, through it, and into the back yard, leaving a drips of blood as he walked. There in the back yard sat the old willow tree him and the kids use to play under when they were growing up. Taking the wand he had been clutching so tightly for the past few minutes out of his pocket, he raised it and pointed it at the tree. For a moment he saw him and his kids under it, Albus and James sword fighting, Him pushing Lily on the old swing. Then his temper burst and he screamed. "INCENDIO!" Fire erupted from his wand in a jet, the tree catching fire instantly. Now the tears came. He fell to his knees crying, watching as the last of the real Potter family burned in front of his eyes. This war was going to be even harder than the last.

[lydia]

She didn't think she had ever heard her father speak so cold. She knew he expected better of her, everyone did. That was a harsh blow and she went quiet. Everyone expected something from her, and she was finally fed up of trying to make everyone happy. She wanted to be happy and she was far from that. Very far. She felt like standing up and shouting at him, getting every part of her emotions and just asking what he wanted from her. She wanted to live her own life but clearly she couldn't. There was always something to make it by far more difficult. There was always a block, or something to make her stray away. Now she'd been placed on a path she didn't know where it led.

She almost snapped again when he brought the baby into it. "Don't you even dare bring the baby into it. It has nothing to do with anything. How do you know im not going to kill it?" she replied in a similar cold tone. No she was wrong, she wouldn't kill it. She did love it but it got strapped into the spur of the moment. She knew she would have to clear her temper up by the time the baby was born. She just hoped the war would come sooner rather than later.

She watched as he walked out. Of to let some steam out clearly. She didn't blame him, she needed to calm herself down too. She sat for a moment, looking around the living room. Soon enough her eyes were drawn to her wand. She didn't dare touch it just incase she got the urge to go kill her father. It wasn't long before she got up of the floor and headed out to the garden. She didn't step out the door, but watched as her father set the tree alight. She liked that tree. It held memories, but clearly it was all gone. She took a breath in the cold air. So it began. It was really going to happen.