surprise! {roula!

[lydia]

Lily Potter had gone through many changes in the space of four months. It was amazing just how much it could take to make you realise that life was worth living, and even though lily still felt like leaving hogwarts and the magical world forever, she knew she couldn't. Not now. Now that she was nearly three months pregnant. She still had yet to tell her parents, and she knew that by far would not go down as well as it had with James. She had told James first because he was the eldest. He was one she could completely rely on and he had said he would help her break the news.

Next on the list would have to be her sibling. Her and Roula never really interacted, Lily used to be jealous for the attention the girl recieved from the day she was born. Daddy's little princess had her crown stolen and given to he sister. And no like any other attention seeking little girl she was by far from happy. In fact she had refused to get to know Roula, and now she thought that perhaps it was time to attempt a little sisterly chat. But the one problem was she never knew where the youngest potter was. She had of course in the end decided to owl her, and asked to meet in the north tower at midday. The time that it was quietist. They had plenty to catch up on.

[auby]

Roula had received an owl from her abnoxious, elder sister, Lily. She read through it again and again with her still green eyes. She kept her grip on the paper. Was this a fantasy? Her sister. Her sister asked her to meet her? She pushed herself off of the bed in the Gryffindor dormitories. She walked toward the huge wooden door and flung it open. She glided down the steps and out of the common room. She ran a finger through her short, ginger hair. This was certainly going to be interesting.

It was freezing cold. She pulled her jacket over herself and made her way toward the north tower. It was severely quiet. It wasn't surprising, but what was surprising was the fact that Lilian Luna Potter had asked Roula Auby Potter to meet her up at the North tower. That was certainly odd. Her green eyes then flickered onto her elder sister. She rolled her eyes and glided over to Lily. "So you had sent a beautifully printed parchment, that isn't a compliment by the way, to come seek me here?" her words were cold. She detested Lily. Her words were intelligent. She stopped walking. "Why?"

[lydia]

During her wait, Lily wondered if the girl would actually come. After all Lily only had memories of either ignoring the girl or being rather harsh. Lilys jealousy could be cruel and cold, it was probably what got her into slytherin in the first place. She wasn't like James and Al, she could be mean, she was after all what you would call a mean girl. It was cold, just how Lily liked it. It felt fresh, she enjoyed the winter air but longed for the warmth. No she wouldn't. Her hands fell to the rail as she looked over the school. She wondered how many people came to look over the grounds of the school. Only she knew exactly what would happen in the future. She was favoured by Bellatrix Lestrange, and that woman wanted to destroy it.

Soon she heard light footsteps arrive and the sound of the yougest Potters voice. It was hard to think of what to say. They didn't exactly speak that often. She went to speak but stopped. She examined her yougest sister. Her own flesh and blood. It was clear the girl did not like her.Before she had a chance to think about what she said she replied. "Watch your tongue Roula" it was the spitting image of what Bellatrix would have said. She knew she would have to cover up her slightly cold tone. "Is it so wrong that i want to see my yougest little sister?" she questioned letting go of the rail and leaning back onto it. "I mean i've been away for two months? And this is the greeting i get? I guess you don't want to hear my news then" she said finally sighing.

[auby]

Her remark was rather hilarious. She looked away, over the railing, at the beautiful sight. Her ginger hair swayed with the wind. She simply sat down on the stair, looking back toward her sister. "Firstly, sister, watch what tongue? My words were simply true," she spoke softly. "And secondly, it's the fact that we haven't kept in touch for two years so basically it's a little awkward for me, so allow the face of reality kick in please." the little ginger head turned away from her elder sister and looked down the stair. She kept staring down.

She wrapped her arms around her bare, thin legs. News? That was when her ears perked up. This was going to be interesting. "Let me guess, your a death eater and pregnant?" now, this was just a guess. She didn't know if it were true, and she meant her words in a sarcastic way. She barely ever thought of Lilian as a death eater and pregnant at such a young age. She turned her body to face Lily. She kept her stare on her for a bit, waiting for an answer.

[lydia]

"Firstly sister watch what tongue? My words were simply true" she muttered in a sarcastic tone. If he sister wanted to play sarcasm so could lily. She also knew they hadn't kept in touch. Personally Lily blamed Roula but she guessed Roula blamed Lily. They were probably the most dysfunctional sisters in the world at this current state. They didn't know a thing about each other and they knew of their dislike for each other. "Well you could have owled me any day of the week. I would have owl'd back. I've been busy for two years." Lily said folding her arms and almost glaring at the girl. But she stopped. She had to play nice. Roula was going to be an aunty after all.

Lily watched the girl. Wondering what was going through her mind. She personally had no idea? Lily wished for that stupid mind reading ability the bellatrix and jack had. But she knew that was a little out of her leauge. And then Roula said something and Lily was drawn straight back out of her thoughts. Her face dropped as did her arms. Who told her? That's all she could think. It couldn't have been a guess right? Who put death eater and pregnant in one scentence? Let alone directed it at Lillian Potter. "And how the hell do you know! Who told you? James?" she blurted storming to the girl and pulling her to stand up.

[auby]

Before the girl could actually blink, Lilian had pulled her up. The last thing Roula knew, Lily was yelling, demanding answers from her. Her green eyes lay still on her elder sister for a few seconds until she could finally speak. Okay, that was slightly unexpected. "No! Why would James tell me? We barely even talk," she struggled from Lily's hard grip. She pushed Lily away. "What the hell is wrong with you?" she asked, wiping the dust off of her skirt.

The girl looked back up at her sister with a quizzical look on her pale feature. It was as if the slightest touch might shatter an infinitely delicate balance. "So it's true..." she whispered faintly. "You're pregnant... and a death eater," she looked away. She sighed. She looked back at Lilian, a smile creeping on her face. "That's wonderful! Except for the Death Eater part of course!" she hugged Lily- tightly. "Who's the father?" she paused, thinking about the Death Eater part. "But...why did you pick the choice...the dreadful choice of becoming a Death Eater?" she asked softly, feeling tears building up. "I mean, does that mean you want to kill me- the family?"

[lydia]

Lily knew she probably shouldn't have lost the short temper she had with the youngest of the Potter family. After all she wasn't sure with how much she could cope with before she would actually just snap and attempt to kill the girl. She didn't loose her balance from Roula's feeble grip and she didn't even push back, though the thought of pushing her down the stairs was tempting. Somehow she was glad the girl couldn't read minds. She didn't bother answering Roula's outburst because before she had chance Roula was already considering what had been said. Shit. That was when Lily realised that she didn't have to mention the death eater part. Oh well. She'd have to just deal with that slight problem.

She nodded back to her sister. Admitting it felt by far better than lying. But soon enough she was trapped under a tight hug. "Roula.... i don't do.... never mind" she said leaving the girl to hug her. She wasn't normally one to go around hugging people but she couldn't be bothered to pry the girls arms from around her. "Axel..." she began but left the last name out. She was sure Roula would piece that part together with him being in gryffindor. "But he wont be around as much as my new boyfriend" she added. And then the questions about being a death eater came out and lily shushed her to quieten down. "Im not the only death eater in the school." she muttered edging over and peaking down the stairs to see it clear. "Choice?" she finally said turning to Roula. "I was tricked into it by Jack Lestrange. And for a point i enjoyed going around helping Bellatrix kill off muggles" she began. "I don't have to kill you yet, i don't particually want to but i know if i don't stick by the dark lady i'll... me and the baby will die. So don't get your hopes up for a loving family. Im sure mum and dad will do the job before that woman does anyway." hormonal tears we're already falling down her face and she wiped them away.

[auby]

She slightly moved away from her sister. She wiped the stupid tears away. Her arms trembled. "Merlin's beard... I haven't felt that in a while," she couldn't help but allow a weak chuckle to escape through her lips. The hug. It felt so nice. So warm. Why did all good things have to come to an end all the bloody time? She took a step back. Axel. Axel Wynn? A small smile crept upon her face. "I see..." she smirked. "Axel Wynn? Rather a nice pick, he isn't that bad." she complimented. "And I promise not to inform father about any of this." she agreed.

New boyfriend? What? "Merlin's beard, are you some sort of whore?" her mouth dropped. "And there are other death eaters in the school?" she walked over to where her sister stood, standing over the railing, staring down. "That's a little bit creepy, don't you think?" she then glanced at her sister when she said at one point she actually enjoyed killing off muggles. Her mouth dropped even more. She turned and glared at her sister with stinging green eyes. "How dare you! Muggles are innocent and they didn't do anything to you. DON'T KILL MUGGLES! They are good people," she argued, shoving her in the arm, almost making her fall over the railing. "LILY! Snap out of it, okay?! This isn't good!" she paused, taking a long breath, feeling more tears build up. "Can.. Can we please force our family back together? It's terrifying when everyone's all over the place. I'm too young to face the fact about death and detachment." she bit down on her bottom lip, looking away.

[lydia]

Lily was confused with the small girls reaction but didn't say anything. It was probably normal for Roula to act like that. How would lily know when she was never around? Even at home she was barely there. Always straying away claiming she was staying at a "friends" which in her world was more commonly known as the dark ladys house doing what she was told to do. She gave a small smile at the compliment about Axel. Of course lily never really looked on the brightside, but Axel had even said their baby would be beutiful within the mix of the pair. They were both hoping for a girl since males in axels family always landed into being a werewolf. "Oh no, you don't promise. You wont say anything to our parents. I would rather tell them myself. Im not sure what to say about the death eater buisness so i think im going to decide to surprise them when the wa.." she stopped herself. "Im going to surprise them another day." she finished.

Her face almost dropped of the face of the earth. Since when did Roula use language like that? Let alone call her a whore?! "No no no." she denied. "I wasn't dating axel in the first place, a few months back i told him i was someone else. Me and Chris we're on and off last year, im sure you will like him.... mind you..... i dont really know what you like" there went lilys big gob again. "Roula, you don't understand how close you are to them till you become one yourself" lily said quietly, a small amount of guilt washing over at the thought of Roula interacting with one. And the thought that she was stood next to one right now. Then came the rant about muggles and a small cruel smile sweeped over lilys face."You don't understand Roula. Once... once you do it it's like a drug." lily tried to explain. "It's like something takes over, and thats it, you become some different person. The problem with me was i couldn't control it. Thats why i left school. Two whole months of sorting my head out. Jack nearly killed me. And i nearly killed Jack and Dominique." she paused. "Correction the dark lady wanted me to kill dominique." one second she was stood enjoying her thoughts about death second miniute she was almost fall of the edge. "Roula! You cant do that!" she said pushing her a little roughly back.It wasn't long before Roula was begining to cry. "Roula. Roula don't cry you'll set me off!" she half pleaded. "Forcing us back together doesn't work. Roula... Im not really your family anymore. Once everythings out, that's it. Im going to die Roula, whether you like it or not" lily finally admitted.

[auby]

She sighed. "The male sex is irrationally disgusting, I may say. Have you ever seen the males in my year?! You try to get close to them but noo, they do something quite the opposite," she rolled her eyes. "Stick a fork up their nostril." Roula hated boys. They were nothing but low-life losers with no lives. She wondered what love was. Sometimes she never really wanted to fall in love. Love between two sexes was plain foolish to her. What was the point of falling in love anyway?

Killing muggles? KILLING MUGGLES WAS ADDICTING? What the heck! "I don't care what I understand or not but killing others is so off balance," she crossed her arms, huffing a strand of hair that was hanging in front of her face. "Well as for me, I wouldn't do it. I wouldn't even think of doing it. Killing is a sin. Father told me so."

She wiped the tears from her eyes, staring up at Lily. Im going to die Roula, whether you like it or not. Her mouth dropped. "LILY! Stop saying words like that! It isn't true and you know that!" she pushed her sister yet again, but a little less rougher than the previous time. "I don't want you to die, okay? You're my only sister and your death would crush me," she spoke, honestly. "And how could you say you're not part of the family anymore? What the merlin do you mean?" she wiped another tear strolling down her pale cheek. "Doesn't family matter to you anymore?"

[lydia]

Lily couldn't help but laugh at her comment about boys. "You think that now, but wait till you start dateing for real." she paused. "You know what really pissed me off. Axel getting a new girlfriend full well knowing im pregnant with his child. What a fuck wit, i swear down i might have to kill that girl if she literally thinks she's having anything to do with my child she can think again. stupid bitch" after her miniture rant she turned back to Roula. "Oh sorry about that.." she apologised. There went roula again, not understanding what it was like, or at least more like ignoring it. "Killings a sin, yes, but its pretty fun when their pleading for you no to kill them. Its like they already know whats going to happen. But i highly suggest you don't even.... do it. Honestly i think i've crossed every rule father ever made for me. don't get pregnant. don't speak to strangers and get kidnapped, dont kill someone, dont use your wand against family. the list goes on." she sighed.

A second push came. Roula couldn't deal with the fact of what was going to happen? That was something new. "Roula you don't get it. You don't understand who im working with. One slip and im dead. You'd be stopped from seeing me anyway. Once the family knows, Dominiques got it in for me, she doesn't want the family on my side. You need to learn to let go. Your better off that way. Im not your sister. Not anymore" Lily knew she had to be cruel to be kind. "Besides, im sure you can meet your niece or nephew before hand.." she questioned. would she live that long? she wasn't sure honestly. "I let go of family ages ago. Im nothing to do with any of you other than through blood. I care for you all but.... i cant stop whats going to happen. I don't know how to. Im sorry Roula i really am. There's nothing i can do. Fates already planned out my life. Don't screw yours up in the process."

[auby]

Roula sighed as Lily rambled on and on about the fact that she had left the family and such. She leaned her stiff body against the railing, staring down at the crashing, wild waves. She sighed, thinking - I wish I could just jump. The waves were attacking the shore with raging anger. She closed her eyes breathing the moist, salty air. Demons and Angels. They were everywhere. You couldn't really see them. Demons would trick you whereas angels would give their guidance. Roula didn't trust many. Angels could have been demons in disguise for goodness sakes!

Her eyes flickered open. She sighed glancing at Lily. Roula's eyes were dry now thanks to the breeze. Then she spoke - "Well, for once Lily. Try understanding me." her words were direct and cold. "I mean I haven't slept in weeks nor do I eat much these days. I've lost my appetite. Want to know why I've lost my appetite? Sure you do. You're the one of my mind. Not James. Not Albus. I see them all the time. You're the one on my mind. You were like my big sister. I looked up to you. You were my idol for god's sakes, not mother. If mother or father ever get deceased, merlin forbid, I wanted to go live with you and I wanted you to teach and me and I always wanted you to be with me at all times and in return I would do the same. But now those thoughts are gone. Washed away," Roula spoke, honestly, turning away from her sister, looking at the stairs. "Now... now you're gone," she continued. "My life plan's crashed." she moved toward the stair.

[lydia]

Lily didn't speak at first. She listened to Roula and it appeared Lily wasn't the only one with problems of her own. "How can i understand you when we know nothing about each other?" she fought back. Lily couldn't believe Roula looked up to her. There was nothing to look at, just another girl heading for either death, azkaban or just pretty much the worst life. She would always be at the bottom dreaming of climbing up, but something would always hold her back. Some would say she was a fallen angel. Meant to guide and be seen as someone good and pure. She was far from that, and she knew she had traveled too far down the wrong path to turn around and make it up.

"Well Roula i hope you learned from your mistake. Don't look up to those that are a bad influence?" she noted to the younger girl. "roula.." she began once more. "James and al are far better than anything i could be, you should listen to them. Besides i think James is going to help me out. Me and him had a little.. chat so to speak." she admitted. "Me you and Al should look up to James. I mean i do.. did, but still. " she paused wondering what more she could say. "A bit of advice though, don't trust mum and dad. I know James and Al might say you should. But don't completely trust anyone. Even if your life depends on it. You should be wary ok?" she sighed watching roula turn away. "Your lifes only just begining." she advised.

[auby]

Roula sighed, listening her sister's words. She sat down on the stair, resting her palm against her cheek. "Well apparently Lils, you could possibly see that I'm trying to understand you're problems so why don't you help understanding mine as well?" she fought back with her might, now digging her face into both her palms. She got a little more comfortable in her sitting position. She let go of her face and clutched the edges of the stone cold stair.

She bit down on her tongue. "What mistake, Lily?" she frowned, getting up. "What mistake?" she breathed out, walking toward her elder sister. "Lilian, you can change this lifestyle of yours. James, Al and I will help you without informing mum and dad, okay?" Roula said this while staring through Lily's eyes. "I'll help you change. I promise, with complete and utter secrecy," she spoke from the heart. Don't trust mum and dad? What was she babbling about? "What do you me-" Roula was cut off. Her sister was giving her advice. She was trusting her sister with the advice. She nodded. "O-Oh, okay," she glanced down at the ground. "Thanks for the advice, sis." she spoke softly, desperately wanting her sister to change the subject into something new.

[lydia]

She sighed. "Im trying! But i don't know what your problem is. What do you want from me!?" she shouted back at the girl, clearly loosing her temper. There she went on another mood swing. She knew she was getting whiplash from the constant changes in her moods and well she guessed her hormones were having some sort of field day. She watched Roula sit down, and eventually went by and joined her.

Lily shook her head. "I tried to get Dom sent to Azkaban. It didn't work out." she began. "Dom's going to kill me, i know she is going to try. The whole family will take her side, i know it. Even Al and James will. I am sure of it." she admitted. "Once they find out, thats it." she could help but laugh slightly at roula. "I can't change. I've tried, it didn't work and the last thing i want is Bellatrix ordering me to murder all my siblings. I mean ok so me and dom are in the rough patch....well it's worse than a rough patch and i think we've gone too far to turn around and make up like that."