|
|
Post by lydia on Dec 22, 2009 18:32:23 GMT -5
 
The stroll into hogsmeade had taken its time, it felt longer than normal but then again Lilys mind was elsewhere. What was she meant to do? How many rumours were boiling to be spread around the school? Most to become true? She was lost in those thoughts, wondering whether she was going to be able to deal with the role of single mother. Oh how she hated that word. Single mother, that was what she was going to be branded for life, since when would any boy want to pick up a fifteen year old pregnant girl? Ha, none! They'd all be running for it, she knew if Axel had wanted to but he had stuck by since it was half of his baby too.
She would have to do it all alone. Sure Axel would be here and there but she would be stuck with it with no escape. She sighed stopping and glancing into the busy Hogsmeade. She didn't feel like walking there so turning around she walked back through the gates of hogwarts. She had a problem of picking things recently. She allowed her mind to wander some more, and her legs to have a mind of their own. Where was she heading? She wasn't sure, wherever fate wanted to take her! She didn't care as long as there was no axel, no james or albus and certainly no jack or roxanne.
Soon she landed on the third floor, her legs acheing at the thought of claiming another stair case. The two months she had taken off had destroyed her health. Well her health was in no state of normality now was it. She craved a cigarette. They always seemed to make her feel just that little bit better but that meant a trip back into the cold and she infact could not be bothered. So escaping the world she went and sat on one of the many windowsills of Hogwarts in an empty third corridor. That she was greatful for. Peace.
 |
|
|
|
Post by kaitlin on Dec 22, 2009 19:05:36 GMT -5
SHE WAS YOUNG BUT NOT NAÏVE
[/color][/size] always wise beyond her years[/font][/color] - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -[/size][/color]
Christopher Wyatt had always been the wondering type. He liked to just leave the common room and walk around the countless halls of Hogwarts, just seeing what new he could find each time. See what new paintings he would discover, or even what new rooms he would find. Both he enjoyed very much. Chris had even found something else once. A girl at that, a young Lily Potter sometime last year, she had just been sitting their so naively, looking out one of the windows overlooking the grounds. Chris had automatically been hooked. He remembered going up to her and talking, him being seventeen, his hormones were naturally going crazy and he had to flirt with such a beautiful girl.
Little did he know that that flirting would lead to more? One time talking, led to two times talking, which led to three, which led to four, and so on. They eventually started dating. Chris was pleased with dating Lily Potter, he was actually happy with her, and from what he could tell she was happy dating him. But it didn’t last long. Even though how happy he was he knew it wasn’t right for them to be together at such a big age difference. He remembered the first time he broke it off with Lily; it was the worst day of his life. But their break up only lasted three months, then they where back together yet again… Chris lost count on how many times he actually broke it off with her, not because of the fact that he didn’t love her, but because he knew he shouldn’t be with her…
Shaking those old memories out of his head as he passed the spot where they met he decided he needed to just keep walking. Keep on with his life, but how was he suppose to do that now that he learned that Axel Wynn had knocked up the one girl in this school that he did care about. Man how he wanted to rip his head off, for doing that to young Lily Potter. But he didn’t though, because Chris had also slept with Lily, before Axel did. Way before Axel did. Just that thought brought a smirk to his face. He had Lily first, and that’s what mattered in his head at that moment in time. But even though he had her first he still felt sympathy towards her… Definitely seeing how Axel didn’t really seem like he wanted to stay with Lily, definitely seeing that he had a girlfriend. Shaking his head he just cursed… Damn that Lily potter and invading his mind like this.
Rubbing the back of his neck he walked up another flight of stairs turning somewhere on the third floor, going down some hall way until he spotted someone. Until he spotted that one girl who he seemed to not be able to get off his mind, Lily Potter. All of those old feeling started running back into his mind, all their memories they had together, all the fun times, everything.
He was so tempted to turn away and leave, but he was sure that the girl had heard him. Just taking a deep breath he walked up to her placing a hand on her shoulder turning her around and just hugging her. He didn’t quiet no why, besides it had been forever since he last saw her, and the fact that he didn’t know what to say at this point in time…
[/blockquote][/blockquote] - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -[/center][/size] status ,[/font][/color] complete. word count ,580 something w/out codestagged , LIly?[/font] lyrics , by nick jonas himself—rose garden[/color] credit , goes to MEELA ! of CAUTION 2.0! for the template and photo. Do not take off. |
|
|
|
Post by lydia on Dec 22, 2009 19:36:02 GMT -5
Lily used to be the girl who had no cares in the word. Doing what she wanted when she wanted and never regretting it. Now? Now she had so many regrets she probably wasn't even the same Lily Potter anymore. She felt disgusted with herself. What had she become? Some cold heartless pregnant death eater? Oh how she was going to enjoy telling the family exactly what she had been up to. It had been hard enough to tell James. But for now while she only had a small little bump she would cover it up. For once she was taking notice of fashion, baggy clothes seemed to be the new english style and that was the way she was heading. Only for now. And it had of course seemed to be working.
A thought crossed her mind that probably shouldn't have. Christopher Wyatt. A lad she had dated so many times she had lost count and each time he broke her heart and left. She always thought she wouldn't speak to him again since each time they lead each other back to where they were. Dating and then sooner or later the signs came clear and Chris would once more break her heart and walk away. She had of course always enjoyed his company, that was probably the first reason she took him back everytime. He was perfect in every way, but he was concerned about the age. She didn't care. Age meant nothing as long as it wasn't something idiotic like ten years apart. It was three!
She knew the first time they had met was right here. Urgh, she should have known better not to dwell on old memories. Things that made her regret things. Maybe if she was a little older? Maybe it was just not meant to be or at least for Chris it wasn't. With Axel it was different. He had actually got her knocked up, said he would be around and then went an got some girl for a girlfriend. If she hadn't had James to stop her she would have ripped of his head and his little girlfriends while she was there. But no she hadn't. Instead she just made sure she could fade into the backgrounds, hoping that people would just forget about her. Though she was sure being in slytherin and such it was going to be hard to not get noticed, then there was the last name she had been cursed with. Oh how much fun life could be, and she was just watching it all swirl down the drain.
James had said she was stronger than she felt. She wasn't sure what he meant by that. Sure she had been some psyco death eater but that made her no different than the defencless fifthteen year old she actually was. Sure she knew curses most people wouldn't dare utter, and she knew how to use them but she had strayed from that downhill life and now she was wondering which she actually prefered. Chris crossed her mind again, at least that was better than the pissed of hormones she had with Axel. Recently she had strayed away from him in fear of just snapping, she had a short enough temper as it was, last thing she wanted was to actually murder someone within the walls of hogwarts. She had of course always had feelings for chris, even if she buried them deep and pretended she really didn't care. But she could feel the wall preparing to fall down. Especially when a familiar hand was placed on her shoulder.
Soon she was being hugged by the boy and a small smile crept onto her face. She felt safe in his arms, they were better than Axels. Where was axel now, probably shagging his new girlfriend, she pushed the anger away. She'd rather be with Chris than Axel. She guessed Chris knew. He wouldn't normally be so.. quiet? "Hi" she muttered before pulling away. "You'll make me cry if you do that for too long." she paused once more. "I take it you've heard?" she questioned. "Axel?".
|
|
|
|
Post by kaitlin on Dec 22, 2009 20:29:47 GMT -5
SHE WAS YOUNG BUT NOT NAÏVE
[/color][/size] always wise beyond her years[/font][/color] - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -[/size][/color]
Standing there with his arms around Lily all of those old feelings that he had learned to push away broke threw again. All the regret for breaking her heart all those times just filled his body and he didn’t really know how to process it all. With his arms around her he leaned his head down kissing the crown of her head. He just wanted to hold her for a moment, to let her silently know that he was always here for her.
When she pulled away from him he dropped his arms and looked at the girl standing before him. He still couldn’t believe that the girl he had cared for so much was pregnant with that jack ass Axel’s kid. He smiled though when she talked keeping himself close to her slightly he put his hand on her cheek and rubbed it with his thumb. “Now why would you cry Ms. Potter.” He asked softly starring down into those eyes that he knew so well. Chris could read her threw her eyes; read her emotions was more like it. He figured once you where with someone so long, or in their case so many times that you learned things like that.
With his hand on her cheek he just rubbed it very carefully with his thumb starring down at the girl. He didn’t really know how to act to her being pregnant. He didn’t know how to react to the young girl in front of him barring a child. It was almost too much for him to process, but somehow he did. Chris knew she was strong, and would pull throw this, without Axels help or not.
Chris could truthfully say he never liked Axel. Not from the first time they met. They where constantly butting heads, and now, that hatred only grew. How could one idiot ruin some ones life like he had Lily’s. Yes he knew that it took two to well conceive a child, but he was blaming Axel for sleeping with a freaking fourteen year old! Yes he has done the same, but it was different. He actually cared for her, and he definitely didn’t knock her up! And if he did he would be man enough to help her threw it; he wouldn’t run off getting a new girlfriend…
Shaking those angry thoughts out of his head he nodded at her question. “Yes I heard.” HE said simply removing his hand from her cheek and pulling her over to the bench that was continently in the hall. Sitting her down and sitting in front of her he sighed. “And yes Axel told me. I had about every intention to kill him right there Luna... I really did. I was so pissed that I was seriously loosing my mind… But then I thought about the baby, and that it was his, so I couldn’t just kill him.” He stated softly placing his hands on his knees as he looked at the dark headed girl. And yes he knew that her first name was Lily, but every since the first time they dated he had preferred calling her Luna, why, eh didn’t know. It was just a habit he figured.
Chris didn’t really know what to say, because he was still in the initial shock of seeing her, and actually known she was pregnant, but he had to say something. “Luna, how are you doing? I mean, I know Axel isn’t being much of a help because last time I saw him he was snogging some girl in the hall.” He said with a very concerned tone…
[/blockquote][/blockquote] - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -[/center][/size] status ,[/font][/color] complete. word count ,605 w/out codestagged , LIly?[/font] lyrics , by nick jonas himself—rose garden[/color] credit , goes to MEELA ! of CAUTION 2.0! for the template and photo. Do not take off. |
|
|
|
Post by lydia on Dec 22, 2009 20:59:57 GMT -5
Her heart almost skipped a few beats with a kiss on her head. Bloody emotions and hormones didn't mix all that well and she almost went off too kiss him as if they were still dating. If it wasn't for her self control that was currently struggling to keep her from going on some murderous rampage she doubted she would have been around. She'd gone through a million moods in the past week and frankly she thought she was getting whiplash. She took her anger out on random first and second years, she cried when she was alone and was happy sitting there with a piece of toast. Mmm toast, she never liked it before but she liked it now and would be happy sitting there with just once piece. She shouldn't have let her mind wander, she was just happy in Chris's arms. Being with him made the world go away, and she understood that meant he was a haven she could turn to.
Lily had been through the scenario a million times. She knew telling her parents would be the worst, and once it was around Hogwarts? She was sure Bellatrix would pick up on it. Maybe she should tell the woman herself? She wasn't honestly that sure just yet. She was hiding out for now, Hogwarts was safer than Hogsmeade and home was bound to be hell. So Hogwarts she would stay and she was greatful that christmas was finally over. She felt his hand on her cheek. "Because i've wrecked my life, and my emotions are everywhere?" she replied back. She got that silly little butterfly feeling in her stomach. She wondered if he thought bad about her.
She knew if Axel wasn't careful he would push her too far. But that was the thing, Lily hardly knew anything about the boy she had slept with as he knew nothing about her. They were two seperate lives that had crossed lines and screwed each other over. Mind you she knew her life couldn't get much worse. Axel had clearly only one priority in mind and that was getting some girlfriend. Oh she hoped he got her pregnant too. Now that would be funny. Then where would he go? Run to some pathetic muggle and escape Hogwarts. Over her dead body. She had already told him if he disappeared she'd rip his face off, and that special little part that boys loved and the reason she was pregnant in the first place. And frankly she didn't even think she was joking.
Slowly lily was begining to confuse what she had with Axel. She had to get along with him for the sake of their child, she never wanted to be a single mother but thats what she felt. Axel was living up his life, he had nothing to worry about. He could play it normal whereas she could not. It took two to tango and Lily knew Axel had got her way too drunk that night. But she hadn't said anything to James, it was bad enough the boy got her pregnant. She was sure James would take his and her anger out on him for her. She knew her and Chris had crossed the same border but she was thankful he knew how drunk she could get, he at least could think pretty straight.
Soon enough she was pulled down to the nearest bench and seated. He had heard, she had already guessed the least. She did of course wonder why Axel had told Chris in the first place, she wasn't too sure if Axel and him were friends or not, but she was sure the news would have dented whatever freindly bonds that shared. Or maybe made them crumble. Meh at least Chris knew Axel.She was surprised how he claimed he was prepared to kill Axel, she was sure the whole family would be, but she didn't expect Chris to hold some feelings for her. She nodded in agreement. "I think James had the same idea too" she pointed out. She didn't know why but Chris was the only one allowed to call her Luna, she didn't mind him saying it, it just felt like it was personal between them and what kept their relationship on it's last threads.
He asked how she was doing and honestly she wasn't sure she could put what she was feeling into words. And then he said something he probably shouldn't have but she held her tongue for the first few moments. "Ever woke up and wanted to die there and then? I feel like that... plus happy, sad, personally i think im having some sort of mental breakdown, but then again i don't know i think im just... confused?" she began before instantly changing when speaking about Axel and his new bird. "As for that slag she should be happy i haven't pushed her of the north tower yet. I swear down if i ever meet her i'll despose of her myself. And if Axel thinks she's having something to do with this baby he's wrong." she snapped.
|
|
|
|
Post by kaitlin on Dec 24, 2009 19:16:04 GMT -5
SHE WAS YOUNG BUT NOT NAÏVE
[/color][/size] always wise beyond her years[/font][/color] - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -[/size][/color]
Christopher Wyatt has been aware of all the crazy things the young woman in front of him has done. How she was a death eater, how she had helped burn down the Three Broomsticks, all of it. He knew from sources he wasn’t ever going to name, but did he care about all of that? Not really. TO him she was the same Lily Luna Potter he met over a year ago, before all those crimes where committed.
He could tell that isn’t what she wanted to be anymore, so that’s what he looked at. He didn’t look at past actions. He didn’t look at all the horrible things she has done. He just tried to see the real Lily Potter. The one that he fell in love with countless times. Shaking all of that out of his head he refocused on her as he sat there with his hand on his leg watching her ever so carefully.
As she talked all the thoughts about killing Axel Wynn popped back into his mind. How seriously he had thought about it actually scared him. How close he actually was to doing it scared him even more. Hell he cared a lot for the young Potter. More than he could explain, and for some no good Gryffindor asshole to do that to her, to get her pregnant at fourteen just seriously pushed him off the edge. And now hearing that James had the same idea made him feel a little better about his thoughts… Just nodding as she talked about that.
He didn’t really want to linger on that too long, and was glad that she kept it short as well. He was more concerned about how she was doing. Like I said before, he never really stopped caring for her. Not even too this day. And hearing all of that about her feeling like she almost wanted to die sometimes when she woke up made his face turn into a sudden frown. Just shaking his head slightly as she continued to talk. When she finally got quiet he moved his hand to her cheek turning her face up towards to his, making her look at him, but being very gentle. “Luna…” He paused for a minute looking down at her. “Don’t ever think that you need to die, or anything about death. Your life is just starting. Yes you have a baby on the way, but look at it as a new opportunity, not as a burden… Ok that didn’t make any since, but anyways… You know I am here for you. I always have been, ever since we first met in this same exact spot. Yeah we went up and down, but I will always be here for you if you need someone to talk to, hell even if you need to vent all your anger I will still be here… and if you’re confused, find me. I will try my best to clear everything up for you… The best I can, you know it better than anyone that I will try, defiantly for you.” He said rubbing her cheek with his thumb for a moment before dropping his hand and looking down for a moment trying to hide the sudden embarrassment he got from his talking… Damn being so shy!
Trying to shake off the embarrassment he just listened to her talk about Axel and his girlfriend. Laughing slightly at her words. “I don’t blame you Luna… I really don’t. If it was my baby I wouldn’t let her have anything to do with it either, defiantly since that asshole is putting her before you. Which in my opinion is totally idiotic on his part…?” He commented back.
[/blockquote][/blockquote] - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -[/center][/size] status ,[/font][/color] complete. word count ,619w/out codestagged , LIly?[/font] lyrics , by nick jonas himself—rose garden[/color] credit , goes to MEELA ! of CAUTION 2.0! for the template and photo. Do not take off. |
|
|
|
Post by lydia on Dec 24, 2009 20:02:45 GMT -5
Lily knew nothing of what people had said, or even close sources for that matter. Axel had known a part of what she had done, the becoming a death eater part, but it wasn't till after he had learned of her burning the pub down and killing innocent people. Even a child. She felt sick to her stomach at that memory. Could she kill her own? No. She couldn't even go through with the abortion she had booked. But how could she have murdered someone elses just for being a muggle? Merlin knew. Because she had no idea. And that was something she would not be telling anyone soon.
Lily wasn't sure what she wanted. She wanted to be the girl that knew nothing, perhaps a muggle knowing nothing of the dark lord and magic. Then she wouldn't have come to hogwarts, met axel, slept with him and landed up into the state she was in now. Confusion and hate swelled through but she couldn't be sure what she had to do next. She was to put her baby first, that was her natural instinct, but what happened to the one that put herself first. She didn't want to be some psycotic killer, but maybe if she seeked out Bellatrix she would offer protection? Possibly. She knew Bellatrix was keen to keep her on her side of the battle. Lily knew everything, and she was able to choose what exactly she could do. Whether it kept her alive of not. She could screw everyone over if she really wanted too.
Her eyes fell to his hand that sat on his leg. She wanted to hold it but she chose not too. She didn't want to end up the same way it always ended. Him saying he was too old for her, but then she could always use the excuse of how old her parents were apart by. She had of course already gone around hurting those she loved she didn't want to hurt Chris either, because then she would have felt at loss. She would have lost just about everything and she didn't think she would cope with that. That would surely have sent her marching to her death whether it was by bellatrix or by suicide alone.
Lily found it hard to open up, she always had but recent events had caused her to become an almost closed book. She knew how Chris loved to read her, and he had his own way of doing that without her even needing to speak. Perhaps that was her reason to why she just couldn't look at him. But of course he raised her head gently to look at him and she did as he wanted. She had broke just about everything and she was hoping to be able to save this one thing whatever it was forever. His words meant a lot, she knew she needed to hear that, from him at least. James knew a part and Chris knew a part, or at least she didn't think he knew it all. How would he? She could tell he was embarressed and from the spur of the moment she took his hand into hers. Embarressed or not she went with it not really caring what he thought. She felt so low she had lost it all. "That really means a lot you know that? And i know you will do a far better job then Axel ever will"
She heard him say he didn't blame her, who would, she didn't want some bitch playing mother behind her back and she didn't even know who this girl was. "If he knows what's good for him he would get rid of her, but i don't think it's sunk in just who he's messing with" she replied in a cold tone. And with that she wrapped her arms around him in for a close hug, whether he wanted to break free or not, she felt like just hugging him. "I love you" she muttered before thinking what she was saying.
[/quote] |
|
|
|
Post by kaitlin on Dec 24, 2009 20:40:22 GMT -5
SHE WAS YOUNG BUT NOT NAÏVE
[/color][/size] always wise beyond her years[/font][/color] - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -[/size][/color]
Christopher’s mind had been searching all the way threw hers the whole time her eyes were locked on his. He was trying to figure out why she felt like she did what she had been feeling, or even just what was on her mind at the moment. But every time he got deep enough inside of her, he just began to get lost himself. He began to drift off… All he was finding was old memories of them, not nesasarly in her mind, but in his. Just looking down into those all too familiar eyes he couldn’t help but to think of all the times they had. Because being with her had been one of the best times of his life. Dating Lily Potter was the year he broke out of his quiet, shy shell he had built around himself over the past years. She was what changed him, into the guy he is now, and to tell the truth, Chris much preferred how he was now. He was more outgoing, flirty, and damn he even made seeker on the quidditch team! In his opinion he was doing well, and he thanked Lily for that…
Just as soon as all those old memories poured into his mind he blinked his eyes a few times hearing her talk. His hand stayed on his knee as he grinned slightly. “Well I am glad it means a lot, because I meant every word of it Luna.” He said simply looking up with her with that signature Christopher Wyatt Peace smile. “And what will I do a better job than Axel at? Making you feel good.” He teased slightly laughing just a tad bit before getting back serious.
How had he been so blind in the past? To not notice that she wasn’t a regular thirteen year old back the, fourteen year old after that… She was much more. She was different. In his opinion she could have been sixteen or seventeen, maturity wise, well besides the little sluttish side she had, but he would never mention that, because it was disrespectful, had his mother had always taught him to respect woman… And last time he checked telling one she had a sluttish side wasn’t respectful, but hey he wasn’t saying he didn’t enjoy that side of her, because he did. Numerous times at that. Chris knew better than to think like that so he quickly pushed it aside... Just at the time he realized that she had taken his hand.
Yeah he was embarrassed but he intertwined their fingers, naturally like he had hundreds of times in the past. He loved how her hand seemed to fit right into his. How it just felt right to him to be here, right now with her. It was everything he had wanted in so many months, even though they weren’t even dating! They where just sitting here talking, but Chris didn’t care. Not the least bit. He cared for her, damn he loved her! He had for over a year! But he had always been to cowardly to pursue it, always breaking off their relationships for numerous reasons. The main was because she was too young, but now… It didn’t matter to him. He wanted to be here for her in a time that she truly needed it, and this time, if there was a time, he would make sure he did the right things…
As Chris rubbed the back of her hand with his thumb he just listened to her talk. Talk about Axel, and his girlfriend, a small smirk came to his face at that, and he was about to say something, something that he had been thinking about for a while now, but then her hand left his and she was hugging him. Wrapping his arms around her Chris kissed the top of her head before he heard her speak again… When those three words came out of her mouth, he was literately stunned, but he wasn’t so shocked that he couldn’t talk…
With a small smile on his face he pulled away lightly lifting her chin with his index finger and placing his lips on hers. He didn’t know if he had pushed it too far, but he had wanted to do this from the time he ran into her earlier. Parting her lips with his own he kissed her as passionately as he could before pull away and placing his hand back on her cheek. “I love you too.” He whispered starring down at the girl, taking this chance to say what he wanted…
“If Axel has a girlfriend, why can’t you date…?” He paused for a moment starring at her. “Luna… what I am trying to say, is if you give me another chance, I will be sure to not screw it up this time… I don’t want to loose you again…” he said softly as he kept his eyes locked on hers.
[/blockquote][/blockquote] - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -[/center][/size] status ,[/font][/color] complete. word count ,824 w/out codestagged , LIly?[/font] lyrics , by nick jonas himself—rose garden[/color] credit , goes to MEELA ! of CAUTION 2.0! for the template and photo. Do not take off. |
|
|
|
Post by lydia on Dec 24, 2009 21:21:38 GMT -5
Old memories were probably what kept Lily sane. She had attempted killing her cousin numerous times and still memories of family had blocked her when she had gotten the chance. Something blocked her. Something that wouldn't let her follow through with what her mind wanted to do. Why? She wasn't awfully sure, but the times when she had come so close she didn't. Bellatrix wanted her too and she was more than happy to attempt. But she knew that she couldn't and here she was now wondering if she should confide and tell Chris every single detail or if she should leave that to within family matters. But what family would she have left in the end of this? Then she realised the opportunity chris spoke about. She was begining her own whilst loosing another. It was a loss and a gain. Maybe he was right in life was just begining. Maybe this was her second chance after a screw up. Maybe.
She nodded before hearing his teasing comment. Now that was the Chris she knew. She smiled up at him. "You always make me feel good. It you." she laughed. "Besides i'd choose you over axel anyday" she admitted, "Though i doubt i will catch you changing nappies, on second thought i doubt i will catch axel doing that either" because he wouldn't be there. He said he would help but that would be stupid things like taking the child for what an hour or maybe two? to drop it off and do all again when he felt like it. Well not even that! He was going to put some girl first so whenever she felt like it. She scowled.
Lily had always been above her age group in some cases it made her smart, though he mother said she grew up too fast. But she was going at the speed she wanted to grow. She couldn't help being who she was and the recent events had soon sprung her into adult hood and responsibilities. She knew them, she always had but she was playing the dangerous game of russian roulette and she was waiting for the bullet to finally come around. There was only one game to play. And that was life. She knew exactly who she was messing with and she knew exactly how far she could push things but the limit was faint, and it was wether she trust herself not to loose it and cross it just because she could. Because the new lily did that. Did things she shouldn't do. Like getting pregnant.
She smiled down at their intertwined hands, it felt perfect. Better than anyone elses and she could sure feel the connection of her lost feelings for him. She knew she was falling again and she was preparing herself for heartbreak. Because there was no chance. She was being left alone in the world. Jack had said she would always be alone, after everything she had done she truely believed she deserved that. Talking felt good. Letting things of her mind felt better, and being able to speak and say what she wanted was perfect. It was how she was with Chris, she could confide anything into him and he would sit there with his smirk on his face and not judge her for it. She was glad. Everything she wanted sat right beside her, and everything she needed was only a question away. But would it end the same as it always had? She was sure she had made the last time they broke up their final time. But there would always be something that drew her straight back to him.
She had a mini panic, she knew she meant it and she knew how any other boy would react. They would pull away and say as friends or walk away. She felt stupid and could feel her heart beating fast. Why did she have to blurt it out! But then she thought she could always blame it on hormones. There would always be an advantage to something, and pregnancy had quite a few. He pulled away and she dreaded his reaction. But yet again he lifted her chin but this time something touched her lips. Those familiar ones she had been missing so much. She felt her heart skip a few beats and her cheeks go red. It felt perfect. And when he replied words she longed to hear it made her feel complete.
But then he added an abrupt comment. Why couldn't she date? Before she had time to think he was already offering himself. Those same words he repeated the times they had made up. She went to speak but nothing came out. It took a long moment before she finally squeeked. "Chris..." she said lightly. "This isn't something you can say now and break off later. If i date someone then i want to know its for real. I want to know im not going to be left on the sidewalk when you decided your too old for me. I thought i made it clear the last time. We are always going to have the same ending. Your right for me, but im not right for you"
|
|
|
|
Post by kaitlin on Dec 24, 2009 21:54:20 GMT -5
SHE WAS YOUNG BUT NOT NAÏVE
[/color][/size] always wise beyond her years[/font][/color] - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -[/size][/color]
Christopher had always thought of himself as a very non judgmental person. He was the type to well look at a person for who they were, not mistakes they had made in the past. Not their blood type, not their side in this wizarding world, not for their wealth, he didn’t look at that. He looked at the person themselves, and yes he had been called insane by dozens of people, but he knew that Lily Potter wasn’t all that bad. She had sides to her that he believed were truly amazing. She had sides that he has only probably seen, and the same goes to him. She is probably one of the only people who has ever seen the truly sweet side of Christopher Wyatt Peace, the only person who has seen him be a total goof ball, and why, because he just felt like he could be himself around her, and he hoped she felt the same…
Chris also trusted her. He trusted that girl with all his heart and he didn’t care if she was a death eater, he truly didn’t care, because he believed that she would keep a secret for him. That she wouldn’t break that trust that he had worked so hard to gain from her, and the trust she had in return gained from him. Yes, she has probably lied in the past, hell she has probably lied to hundreds of people, but he hoped she didn’t lie to him. Yeah it probably happened, but over nothing major he hoped… It would probably kill him if she had…
Even though his thoughts were in a somewhat serious mood he pushed it aside to respond to her little statement back. See Chris knew he could make her smile, he could make her laugh, he has even made her cry a few times, but those time he hurt her he regretted with all his heart, but he knew he couldn’t change the past… “Well I guess I am doing my job then if I make you feel good.” He said with that same little smirk on his face, but that quickly changed when she started talking about nappies. “Yeah, I think you are right there. I doubt I will be changing some stinky diaper, but… Then again if it’s for you I think I could handle it.” He said truthfully.
When he noticed that she didn’t pull her hand away from his when he intertwined their fingers a grin came back to his face. How he loved that feeling he got by just touching her. IT was like all the emotions in his body where amplified. They where just, amazing actually. He wanted to just pause this moment and stay here, that’s what he truthfully wanted, but then again it was impossible. She had a life, a life that no longer in evolved him, and he wanted back in that life so bad that it was actually starting to hurt, but he couldn’t just ask her right now, she would probably say no, but as soon as he thought that he ended up kissing her and asking anyway, so it was out there and he was just waiting for her answer.
As he waited he just starred at her lips. How he wished he drew that kiss out even longer. When their lips met it was electric in his opinion. His heart raced, and he actually felt something. Something real that has been there every since the first time they dated, but him being the shy self he was, he was again to afraid, to coward to push it even further than it was. Damn he was afraid to even tell her he loved her! Just a second ago was the first time he ever did, but… He felt that it was worth it, yes he waited, and he might have waited to long, but it was out there and she felt the same way, so that was all that mattered.
When Lily did speak he knew that was exactly what she would say. He had said that same damn line like fifty times! She didn’t believe it would last, if he was her Chris wouldn’t believe it would last either, but he knew how he felt now, and he knew that he would make it last this time He wanted it to be real this time, and he was going to try his best to make it real for her.
Keeping his hand on her cheek he kissed her forehead and then her lips very lightly before starring deep into those green (?) eyes. “Listen to me Luna. I know it has ended in heartbreak all these previous times. I know I have hurt you, and you probably don’t want to be with me anymore, but listen.” Taking a breath he closed his eyes for a moment before relocking them on hers. “I do love you, and I was too stupid to let age, damn three little years, to get in the way before. I was too cowardly to push something farther than it was. I was too stupid to realize what an amazing person I had in front of me. If you give me another chance, I promise it will be different. I will truly make sure this time I don’t let stupid little things get in the way… And if you give me another chance I will love you and that baby to the fullest, even if it is some other guys… I want to be here for you Luna, I truly do…” He took a small breath “I really promise you Luna… Just give me one more chance that is all I ask of you.” And with that he got quiet just starring into her eyes.
[/blockquote][/blockquote] - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -[/center][/size] status ,[/font][/color] complete. word count ,965w/out codestagged , LIly?[/font] lyrics , by nick jonas himself—rose garden[/color] credit , goes to MEELA ! of CAUTION 2.0! for the template and photo. Do not take off. |
|
|
|
Post by lydia on Dec 24, 2009 22:30:13 GMT -5
Lily wasn't judgemental. It had really crossed her mind to wonder what type of person she was. She had been many. Heartbroken, happy, in love, alive. There were some. Now what was she? A girl who could chose who lived and who died because she had death eaters cleaning up anything she left behind? Some cruel girl that enjoyed to see others in pain and them plead for her to let them go. She had done the lot and that had at one point taken over. She was still a girl, and knew once her child was born she would want nothing to harm her or him. But then she was willing to do anything she could to protect her child and if that meant becoming loyal to bellatrix then she would. Because she didn't matter anymore, the baby did. She had screwed her life over and was about to bring anothers into the world. She was preparing herself.
Chris had always been there. In times of need he would walk in and sweep her off her feet, only to drop her on her ass a few weeks or months later. That part hurt, but when she was in his arms she felt like nothing could bring her down. Nothing but Chris. How he did it she didn't know it was just there. Something so right. So perfect that gave her the missing piece of the puzzle. But she knew every time he had come and snatched that piece back and walked off back to his life. Just because of a silly age difference. Lily felt like she could trust him with her life. And she hoped he felt the same, but then who would trust a death eater with their life? He was a halfblood.
Making the cold hearted Lily Potter smile had to be special. James and Al could do it from time to time but chris could hit bullseye everytime. It was just too hard to explain in words. Love? Yes love that would have been the best way to put it, but she knew just how hurtful love could be. Love could kill, and loved could pull you apart. But then it could bring so much more better things than that she was sure it was worth the risk of falling. But would she be caught? She was not sure. She smiled at his comment about if it was for her he could handle it. "Haha i wouldn't say that, i might just have a way of tricking you into doing things you wouldn't enjoy doing" she admitted, but doubted she would. Not with Chris, not with the way he made her feel.
She knew that was the first time he had ever admitted love for her, and yet lily had admitted it on plenty of occasions. He may have thought of it as just one of those boyfriend girlfriend things but she had been honest, she had been real. She was an honest girl. If someone asked she would admit to the wrong she had done, but attempt to delay the consequences. Some said she was too honest for her own good, but they could shut their mouths until they tried one day as miss potter. Then perhaps she would consider their thoughts on how she should live her life. She longed to return her lips back to his but self control sat there holding her back, self control was just waiting to crumble to ash, what would she do if she attempted to kill chris? Kill herself? And then that girl crossed her mind. Isabella what's her face. Lily knew Axel would one day introduce her and lily already knew the outcome would be a fight. To the death preferebly.
She listened to him speak knowing he was searching through the green orbs of hers. She listened as he asked her too, her hand reaching up and resting on top on the one on her cheek. He spoke honestly. She could tell. And with what he said made her well up. She fought back the water works, and knew it would get far worse than this the more she went into the pregnancy. "I... i don't know" she sighed quietly. Was she willing to take the risk? She thought for a few further moments, searching for what she really wanted. He claimed he would love her and the baby, he wanted to be there. He wanted to be hers and she wanted to be his and with a quick kiss on his lips she replied. "One chance, screw it over and you will be in the same boat as axel and his girlfriend... ok?" she said in a jokable tone yet deadly serious. And with that she returned her lips to his feeling the sense of completetion once more wondering just how long it would last.
[/quote] |
|
|
|
Post by kaitlin on Dec 25, 2009 0:57:53 GMT -5
SHE WAS YOUNG BUT NOT NAÏVE
[/color][/size] always wise beyond her years[/font][/color] - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -[/size][/color]
When Chris was ever hurt, sad, upset, or just needed to talk to someone he had always confided in Lily. Well when they were dating that is. She had always been one who too would listen to him, as he did her. He could pour his hear out to her, and she would listen, just as he did if she ever needed to talk. It amazed him how they did that. How they weren’t scared to tell each other anything. That they both seemed to know that nothing they could say would ever drive them to far apart. Yeah they broke up numerous times, but something always pushed them back together.
Christopher knew something was telling him go back to the spot that he met Lily potter at when he started his journey around the school. How lucky that he did, because if he didn’t he would have never ran into Ms. Potter. HE would have never talked to her, he would have never figured out that she loved him, well truth is told, and he knew she loved him. She had told him numerous times, but he never really took it seriously. It was that side of him that was afraid to fall in love. It was the side of him that was afraid to push their relationship further… Back then the words I love you truly terrified him. So truthfully if he hadn’t come up here he would have never realized that HE loved her…
But the longer he sat here without hearing an answer from her, the more he started to worry. Chris was worrying that maybe he had broken her heart too many times. Maybe he threw her back on the ground too many times, and not swept her off her feet enough. Even though his thoughts were so negative, and the chances of her coming back to him were slim, there was still apart of him that knew, that hoped that lily would give him another chance. That maybe just maybe she felt that if she did give him another chance that it would be different like her claimed.
With his hopes high and her hand placed on his that was on her cheek he listened to her talk. Her first words made his heart completely stop. I mean it just stopped for a good two seconds… She didn’t know, so to the young man he automatically thought no… But just as soon as his thoughts started going downhill she pecked him on the lips, started to talk again and the soft thudding sound in his chest started to pick back up once again. The kiss had assured him. Well he believed if she was saying no that she wouldn’t do that, and he was right.
Smiling, and nodding as she talked he moved his other hand down to her leg, resting it lightly on it as he starred into her eyes listening to her telling him how it was going to be. And how he agreed. “Ok. One chance and I promise you Luna I will not screw this one up. This time it’s going to be for real. This time I am going with my heart, not age, not anything but me and you.” He stated pecking her on the lips as well. “And I will not screw you over, because one I don’t want to hurt you, and two unlike Axel I actually know how dangerous you can be.” He stated.
Just as soon as he was finished talking her lips were back on his, and a smile spread to his face. Chris just felt so whole when he was with her. He felt so alive, and like nothing could bring him down. As his lips moved with hers he moved his hand around her waist pulling her closer to him as he slowly pulled his pale lips away from hers. A small smile on his face. “I really, really, really don’t want to screw this up Luna.” He whispered before pressing his lips to the all so familiar ones before him… This day couldn’t get better…
[/blockquote][/blockquote] - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -[/center][/size] status ,[/font][/color] complete. word count ,700ish w/out codestagged , LIly?[/font] lyrics , by nick jonas himself—rose garden[/color] credit , goes to MEELA ! of CAUTION 2.0! for the template and photo. Do not take off. |
|
|
|
Post by lydia on Dec 25, 2009 6:10:05 GMT -5
They were like two opposite magnets attracting back as soon as they passed by. Sure Lily had been angry with him, and when she meant angry she meant angry. Angry and hurt. Everytime they broke up they went through the phase of not talking to each other something always made them cross lines once more. And Lily like always forgave and took him back no matter how much James or Rose complained that they were just going to do the same all over again, but like always lily pushed them of the case. It was her life, she would live it the way she wanted to live it, and if she needed help then then she would confront them about it.
How she came to be at this spot she didn't know, she just left herself to wander and eventually crash at the memororable place she blamed fate. She never used to believe in fate and all that crap but recently it was the only excuse she could blame everything that happened on. Sure it could have been a coincidence or something like that. Who knew? What mattered was he was here, he could have walked off and that would have been the end of it all. But he had come sat, talked, he knew. She couldn't believe axel had told him and now she wondered just how many people knew that Lily Luna Potter was pregnant. She knew this was their biggest step. When he spoke three words she had longed to hear. Maybe thats why she had said it, she needed to get it out of her system and find out if he did or not.
She knew the longer she thought about it the more it would strike panick to him. People like James would have said to say no. Be cruel to be kind and break the bond that kept them flying back. Lily knew she could have, she could have gotten up and walked away. She could even have forgotten about him. But she hadn't that was a hard choice, and even though Lily had hurt people and possibly enjoyed it, she couldn't bare to hurt Chris. He may have hurt her but she knew he didn't mean it, he was just being stupid. And she knew that tiny bit of hope had blossomed into something new.
She wasn't sure, she wasn't prepared for something like this. She didn't know what she wanted, that was her all over recently. She either wanted a child or didn't she either wanted chris or didnt she was either destined for the order or for the death eaters. Choices weren't hers to make, or at least she didn't want to make them because she knew if she picked wrong it would all end up on her, and she would have to pay the consequences. So it took her time to think, and it wasn't like she had to rush this. She could have taken weeks, months even to get back to him on that one. But she hadn't she had gone with instinct and her heart then her mind. Yes it was.
He agreed to the deal. One chance, that's all he got because Lily wasn't one to give second chances anymore but since she really wanted this to work out she had. She had given them one last chance before a final. She could tell he was over the moon and she just couldn't wait to rub this into Axel's face. That she had someone far better than he could ever be to her. Sure it may have sounded like she was using him that was why she kept it to herself, but now she knew her and axel were on equal fields. She was broke from her thoughts by a kiss. She heard him speak agreeing to it. But then he said something he wouldn't normally say. Especially to her. She pondered on it for a moment before speaking once more. "what do you mean you know?" she paused before hearing him speak for the final time. "Then don't screw it up" she replied in an almost whisper.
|
|
